true friend

what i've experienced....

a true friend is real hard to find...

out of all those surround u...u just need to find the true one...

and it is called best friend...

for me...it is just so damn hard to find one...

u can have a bunch of friends but a true one?? u might find yourself don't have one...

bunch of friends;

who choose to keep pride as award before u....REJECTED

who betray u with speechless 'knife on the back' thing....REJECTED

who just wanna suck money, only-help,.....REJECTED

who can't take u as who u are, and tend to tell the world how weird u are.....REJECTED

who complain every single step of u but never try to fix their ownself...REJECTED

who care only when u are on the top of the world....REJECTED

who smile at u but then talk bunch of rubbish bout u at the back....REJECTED

....and a whole lots more....

i might also be in someone else fake list....

i might also have done something stupid back then while i call my self a friend...

nobody is perfect i know...

but to restore friendship is like once wise man said; It's like restoring the broken glass...

it's impossible....

because people have memories and brain tend to take it as lessons, revenge, no-entry thing...

that's why even we manage to ease the past, but all we do is pretend that it is going to be ok, 

but it is actually not at all...

u might still never get 'sorry' from those who should say it, but turns out u the one who say it...

u might still wish someone never ever betray u....but yet u just need to pretend like they doing nothing wrong...

u might still explain yourself days n nights so that those u love understand u...but turns out they don't

u might find yourself happy to meet someone but they don't even care your existence...

from all the not resolve thing..it made up  a broken trust and made up  a protection so that u won't 

get back to the same position and have the same thing again...

because u know how much they don't appreciate u...

by never say sorry,

never accept,

never know they are betraying u,

never enjoy happy time with u...

all this insensitive people who being insensitive towards u but complete sensitive and care the others, 

can be REJECTED from the 'true' list...

you can say nobody is perfect, 

you can say better never look at the past,

you can say memories are beautiful...

yes, everything above is correct, but how can imperfect person going to take it in??

nobody actually do as they say...

all they can do is advice other people so that they can cover their own mistake....

but i can see none of them actually do as they say, as they advice me to...nobody~

so let's just live our life...

because u can't seek diamond from a water...

u need a rock, sand to do that...

even the water might freeze itself and seems like one...but still it can be broken easily....

not like the true diamond rock...

not even close~