Sunday, March 31, 2013

only God knows how....

only God knows how the scared is creeping up my brain....
and only God knows how procrastinate i'm because i'm too scared to start, try and fail...again...
God, gives me strength....i wanna have faith again...
CHAYOK!!!>.<

Friday, March 29, 2013

God, You heals my fear....please heal it with Your bless...sathuk

God, this piece of letter is from my heart to You....
'Phrak ei chaui che duai'
i have fears...a BIG one...
it's engulfing me with it's giant world...
God, why fears are so scary?
why it's power is so great that i can't make it to fight back...
to compare to the fears i have...my faith and my bravery is just a little piece of bean...
God, i'm scared....
i'm scared, i'm not going to make it...
Phrak ei che klua...klua chat....
i'm shivering...
my feet numb...
my hands are weak...
my head is blocking....
i can't think on how to escape these fears....
God, only You i can turn to...
only You can show me ways...
God, save me...
please, save me from these fears....
Phrak ei...
why it is so hard?

Thursday, March 28, 2013

Hall of Fame


"Hall Of Fame" 
by The Script featuring Will.i.am 


You could be the greatest
You can be the best
You can be the king kong banging on your chest

You could beat the world
You could beat the war
You could talk to God, go banging on his door

You can throw your hands up
You can be the clock
You can move a mountain
You can break rocks
You can be a master
Don't wait for luck
Dedicate yourself and you can find yourself

Standing in the hall of fame
And the world's gonna know your name
Cause you burn with the brightest flame
And the world's gonna know your name
And you'll be on the walls of the hall of fame

You could go the distance
You could run the mile
You could walk straight through hell with a smile

You could be the hero
You could get the gold
Breaking all the records that thought never could be broke

Do it for your people
Do it for your pride
Never gonna know if you never even try

Do it for your counrty
Do it for you name
Cause there's gonna be a day

When your, standing in the hall of fame
And the world's gonna know your name
Cause you burn with the brightest flame
And the world's gonna know your name
And you'll be on the walls of the hall of fame

Be a champion, Be a champion, Be a champion, Be a champion

On the walls of the hall of fame

Be students
Be teachers
Be politicians
Be preachers

Be believers
Be leaders
Be astronauts
Be champions
Be true seekers

Be students
Be teachers
Be politicians
Be preachers

Be believers
Be leaders
Be astronauts
Be champions

Standing in the hall of fame
And the world's gonna know your name
Cause you burn with the brightest flame
And the world's gonna know your name
And you'll be on the walls of the hall of fame

(You can be a champion)
You could be the greatest
(You can be a champion)
You can be the best
(You can be a champion)
You can be the king kong banging on your chest


(You can be a champion)
You could beat the world
(You can be a champion)
You could beat the war
(You can be a champion)
You could talk to God, go banging on his door

(You can be a champion)
You can throw your hands up
(You can be a champion)
You can be the clock
(You can be a champion)
You can move a mountain
(You can be a champion)
You can break rocks

(You can be a champion)
You can be a master
(You can be a champion)
Don't wait for luck
(You can be a champion)
Dedicate yourself and you can find yourself
(You can be a champion)



Standing in the hall of fame

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

i'm not trying hard enough....

i know i'm not trying hard enough...
wasting time on regrets, doubts, and giving up....
wasting time on useless craps plus procrastinating...
God saw me...every day....see what i do, what i think, what i've become...
such a loser...indeed
God, forgive me...
i am just so dumb!
i can't do this anymore! i can't take it to see myself getting lower and lower...
i'm tired of being miserable and can't control myself from procrastination....
God, why it is so hard for my brain to get it?
God....i feel bad about myself...
i feel really...really...really bad...
i should help myself....
i can't stay this way forever!
i'm gonna keep getting what i always get if i stay like this...
i'm gonna face the same thing if i keep letting myself run with the wind....
i need to stay put, still, firm on the ground....and try harder! >.<
God, i hate laziness!
my head just being programmed that way, it is so hard to change!
when sumy when?
when you gonna realize that u need to get hardworking and work your ass off to get what u want?!
oh goshhh stress! >.<'
come on! try harder!

Friday, March 22, 2013

Try try try


"Try" 
by P!nk

Ever wonder about what he's doing
How it all turned to lies
Sometimes I think that it's better to never ask why

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try

Eh, eh, eh

Funny how the heart can be deceiving
More than just a couple times
Why do we fall in love so easy
Even when it's not right

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try

Ever worried that it might be ruined
And does it make you wanna cry?
When you're out there doing what you're doing
Are you just getting by?
Tell me are you just getting by by by

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try

You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try

Monday, March 18, 2013

plan? ask first...

well, let's start with these few questions...

1) where do you want to 'go'?
2) is that truly what you always wanted to?
3) can you go there?
4) do you have all resources for that?
5) what do you need to do to complete this task you've decided? plan? what plan? can u plan it?
6) what it takes to make the plan done?

then start planning...
and start doing....
plus counting down...

these few questions...can change you forever...

decide.plan.do.continue.there

5 stages of success...

look simple...

look again...

think...

think hard...

............................................

impossible?

make it possible...

and go for it...


all of these....
i'm telling myself....
it's not an advise or what so ever...
just reminding myself...
which, i'm now should be at the 'continue' stage...
but yet, i'm here stuck at 'do' and always tend to stop....

God, give me strength...
sathuk...

Sunday, March 17, 2013

saying the same thing...over n over~

i keep myself from moving on because i tied myself to the past....
glorious past, is past...
it never is going to make sure glorious future...
present...is present, never is going to promise any future either....
what i learned must be, nothing is certain....
anything can happen...
i can't keep telling myself i must be like this and that just because i used to be like this and that in the past...
i must lift this 'anchor' of mine....
and sail...
sail to new places...
i must forgive what's that already happened...and move forward...
i can't keep thinking that when thing is bad yesterday and it is going to be bad today or tomorrow too...
and i can't keep reminding myself that it is going to be better....
that is just too selfish and too self righteous...
things happen the way it will happen....
u can predict but u can't be certain that it's going to be the way you want it to be...
truth is, you can't do anything to change fate...
u might screwed it up but that is just what u feel like...
actually u never is screwed anything up...
it happens because fate already written it that way...the way that u will screw it up...
so forgive yourself, forgive your past....and walk on....
stay positive, do good things, and pray....
because u'll never know what's going to be happened tomorrow....
as no one on earth, can run away from his own fate...
no matter what...
~sathuk~

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

lowest point

have u ever reach your lowest point of life??
well, to define lowest point of life; means, 
you just can't imagine what's there left for you to live with...
you feel like u're at the dead end, nowhere to escape and engulfing by the darkness...
well, here i am...at that very strategically point...
 i can see no future of my own, i can feel no hope for me to move on, 
and i can feel every pieces of me is dropping one by one, losing hope and will to strive for living...
people, it is really hard to be here, at this point...
to be such a disappointment to your love one,
to be such a useless fella to your community,
to be such a no identity person as a citizen...
it is really hard and urrghhh hard! >.<
some says time will pass and so shall the hardship...
but i never see when that will ever happen....

God, you put me in a very impossible way to move on...
impossible for me, as i'm not all those wise man who can figure out on her own...
what to do, how to do, and where's next...
my plan just keep falling apart...
i barely smile nowadays...
and don't even mention bout laughing...
i just...miss myself that way...
why it is so dark now??
what shall i do??

however, deep..deep..deep inside of my heart...
i still have hope...
a little bit, piece of it...
hope that one day, my life will be better...
i guess now, i have to pay the prices of blessing chances You gave me before...
all those chances that i tossed aside..
all those chances that i screwed them up...
i'm so sorry....i'm too dumb...
i'm so sorry to be such an idiot...
i'm so sorry to be so shallow to decide which and which...
~i'm so sorry~

Monday, March 11, 2013

just anything...could happen...really, i learned it hard way~

Anything Could Happen
- Ellie Goulding - 

Stripped to the waist
We fall into the river
Cover your eyes
So you don't know the secret
I've been trying to hide
We held our breath
To see our names are written
On the wreck of '86
That was the year
I knew the panic was over

Yes since we found out
Since we found out
That anything could happen
Anything could happen
Anything could happen
Anything could happen
Anything could happen
Anything could happen
Anything could

After the war we said we'd fight together
I guess we thought that's just what humans do
Letting darkness grow
As if we need its palette and we need its colour
But now I've seen it through
And now I know the truth

That anything could happen
Anything could happen
Anything could happen
Anything could happen
Anything could happen
Anything could happen
Anything could

Baby, I'll give you everything you need
I'll give you everything you need, oh
I'll give you everything you need
But I don't think I need you

Stripped to the waist
We fall into the river
Cover your eyes
So you don't know the secret
I've been trying to hide
We held our breath
To see our names are written
On the wreck of '86
That was the year
I knew the panic was over

Yes since we found out
Since we found out
That anything could happen
Anything could happen
Anything could happen
Anything could happen
Anything could happen
Anything could happen
Anything could

I know it's gonna be
I know it's gonna be
I know it's gonna be
I know it's gonna be
I know it's gonna be
I know it's gonna be
I know it's gonna be
I know it's gonna be

But I don't think I need you
But I don't think I need you
But I don't think I need you

Sunday, March 10, 2013

like final

i'm going to treat it like it's a final....final exam...
yeah, and now is like tons of things to read and to go through...
God...bless me...
give me hardworking (which shall i seek)
give me strength (which shall i create)
Sathuk....
i know i'm on mission impossible....but sometime, do be able to be as far as you can,
teach u how far u can really go~



Thursday, March 07, 2013

high five out there!


when i feel annoyed by those who ask me for favors, 
who i know i'll end up get nothing in return,
i'll think of this....


stop your mind from thinking that i need something in return when i help people...
what i mean here is, there is one type of people on earth, that no matter how
many times u help them, and when it comes to a time that u'll ask the same, 
they're just gonna ignore u...u know? that kind of person? i'm sure most of u do...
those who always turn to u for help, but when u need one, they gonna give u every possible reason a human can ever think of...that kind of person u know...
they are really annoying, love to use people and never give a thing in return...
it's not like i need something in return...
i just want a peace for my heart that i can trust and rely on them when i need...
but it's just never gonna happen...
hmmm too bad~
so, this quote sometime calm me down and let me be someone i wish to be...
a better person than they are...

Tuesday, March 05, 2013

when the wait will be over?? just when??

w.a.i.t.i.n.g

is disaster...is torturing...is sickness...is...killing~
just when it's going to be over?
i'm sick of thinking that i'm gonna screwed it up...
i'm sick of thinking that the ending is not as beautiful as i imagine it will be...
i'm too tired of giving up and not trying good enough...
but, what is 'good enough' anyway?
i'm worried, i get stress, i'm procrastinating, then i regret...

oh gosshh enough already! >.<''
wake up! 
have faith will ya?!!!

Saturday, March 02, 2013

blacklist stuffs

here official my blacklist stuff;

1) never reply message
2) only have inspiration when having boyfriend
3) never have credit to reply message but have credit clingy around boyfriend
4) use...always pretend to be nice because wanna use...
5) blaming...yeah, blame it all on me because i can take them? evenineverdoit

these are five my life PRINCIPLE of blacklist...and i wish i'll never ever ever ever ever encounter these kind of monster ever again in my life! Goshh pissed off!! >.<