have you ever scared of what you talked?

i do...
it's haunting me...
whatever i talked...
i scared of what it might bring...
i scared of it's impact...
because nothing goes around doing nothing...
even air is needed to be inhaled...
even rubbish needed to be recycled...
what about words?
that coming out of us...
words that passed through our brain...
so it sure meant something...
because that's what measured our brain..
on how it works...
it's important...
very very important...
and meaningful...
yeah that's the word...meaningful..
everything is meaningful...

i spent so much time worrying...

i spent too much time worrying about things i shouldn't be worrying about...

i spent so much time trying to walk in someone else's shoes that i forgot to tie mine...

i spent so much time thinking that people will be doing the same...but no..they're not...

i spent so much time thinking, tip toeing, and caring that i forgot how to live...

i won't do it anymore...will i ever?

i scared of myself that i can't trust myself to be normal...to do what normal people do...you know, not caring and stuff...

i'm such a naive...

and i feel stupid...

feel wasted and empty...

God, if i ever love myself like people do...

i should have gotten better life, better results and even meet better people...i guess~

tomorrow

tomorrow i'm turning 24...and yet...i feel so hopeless and helpless...

haihhhhh

aging doesn't help here...

it's just minus all my chances...

maybe some...

lot's of scholarship will be unavailable and tons more i'm not qualified for...

i should be grateful...

i should...but it just hit me on what such a failure i've become...

just sad...

damn sad...

searching for that person

so, think...who you gonna miss then...

WIZ KHALIFA

"See You Again"

(feat. Charlie Puth)

It's been a long day without you my friend

And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again

We've come a long way from where we began

Oh I'll tell you all about it when I see you again

When I see you again

Damn who knew all the planes we flew

Good things we've been through

That I'll be standing right here

Talking to you about another path I

Know we loved to hit the road and laugh

But something told me that it wouldn't last

Had to switch up look at things different see the bigger picture

Those were the days hard work forever pays now I see you in a better place

How could we not talk about family when family's all that we got?

Everything I went through you were standing there by my side

And now you gonna be with me for the last ride

It's been a long day without you my friend

And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again

We've come a long way from where we began

Oh I'll tell you all about it when I see you again

when I see you again

First you both go out your way

And the vibe is feeling strong and what's

Small turn to a friendship a friendship

Turn into a bond and that bond will never

Be broke and the love will never get lost

And when brotherhood come first then the line 

Will never be crossed established it on our own

When that line had to be drawn and that line is what

We reach so remember me when I'm gone

How could we not talk about family when family's all that we got?

Everything I went through you were standing there by my side

And now you gonna be with me for the last ride

So let the light guide your way hold every memory

As you go and every road you take will always lead you home

It's been a long day without you my friend

And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again

We've come a long way from where we began

Oh I'll tell you all about it when I see you again

When I see you again