Wednesday, December 31, 2014

goodluck out thereeeee

new sem is knockinggggg!
i really hope luck is on my side for this new sem....really3 needed it >.<"


Tuesday, December 30, 2014

song that always bring me through...always

"You Haven't Seen The Last Of Me"

Feeling broken
Barely holding on
But there's just something so strong
Somewhere inside me
And I am down but I'll get up again
Don't count me out just yet

I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I'll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
You haven't seen the last of me
You haven't seen the last of me

They can say that
I won't stay around
But I'm gonna stand my ground
You're not gonna stop me
You don't know me
You don't know who I am
Don't count me out so fast

I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I'll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
You haven't seen the last of me

There will be no fade out
This is not the end
I'm down now
But I'll be standing tall again
Times are hard but
I was built tough
I'm gonna show you all what I'm made of

I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I'll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
I am far from over
You haven't seen the last of me

No no
I'm not going nowhere
I'm staying right here
Oh no
You won't see me begging
I'm not taking my bow
Can't stop me
It's not the end
You haven't seen the last of me
Oh no
You haven't seen the last of me
You haven't seen the last of me

Wednesday, December 24, 2014

risau, depress and really really need to do this

it's a very crucial time of sem, FINAL...
and i can't find any strength left to do this SOOCA...goshhhh where my semangat gone?
xde semangat sangat2!!

nak tdo xlena, bgn pun murung...sbb depressed then can't even do anything because of worries...
see human. how powerful your mind is...see

i can't do a thing until i get my brain, my mind right...but how?
God, show me ways...why i'm so down?
so scared?
so negative?
please help me....only You can give me strength...only You...sathuk~

Monday, December 22, 2014

be a person of values

there are many types of students on earth....
you can choose one to be....
let's take few examples...

1) Students of Values

this a student who studies, seeking for knowledge, try to apply and help others around...
like Patch Adam said "I find myself get what i want faster when i help others getting what they want"
This kind of student is selfless, helping and share....
This is the hardest kind to find....

2) Students of Seeking, and Determine

this type is determine and never let their goals slip their hands...
this type is most intelligence of all, but might be less of values...they tend to not share, tend to not helping other people because they think winning is only for one person, only one person can go to the final line...they urge for credits and fame...they love winning, competition and might not really like you if you do better...

3) Students of Procrastinating and Leisure

this kind, tend to sigh, regret and procrastinate.....they procrastinate due to the procrastination itself...
this kind tend to be lazy, proud and lack of motivation...
this kind might search for advises but tend to ignore it...
this kind is the hardest to deal....they learn like a full glass and tend to not listen...

no matter what type, no one is sticking to one type might be phases....

Ghandi said 'Too sure of one's own wise is never a good thing"

so no matter who we are...let's be humble, helping people and try to be better....
too selfish, too selfless is never a good thing...

"Let's walk in the middle road" -Buddha-

Saturday, December 20, 2014


"Lay Your Hands"
by Simon Webbe

Sometimes life can be a burden 
Trine stay one step ahead 
I feel the world upon my shoulder each time
I'm standing out on the edge 
And my hopes have all deserted me
Like they washed away in the sand
And it's hurting my pride 
Trine survive 
But i know i stand a chance

When you lay your hands 
Oh yeah
`Caus it's the only thing I have that still makes sense 
(Oh baby, when I`m calling out) 
Give me love and affection,
Keep telling me, show me the way.
(Oh, if you see me falling down)
Lift me up from the shadows
Will you take me away to a better place?
(And when I`m in my darkest hour)
You`re by my side, to turn the tide,
Until the suffering fades.
When life is getting me down,
Getting me down, i`m close to defeat,
Come and lay ur hands on me.

Feel this road is getting longer now 
And i`m too far away from home 
Still I gotta keep on moving on 
But I can`t do it on my own 
Baby keep my head above water 
Help me swim for my life
`Coz the game is getting harder 
The strain is gettin stronger 
And I can only face the fight 

When you lay your hands 
Oh yeah
`Coz it`s the only thing I have that still makes sense

`Til I`m healed again,
Rediscovered my strengths,
Those bitter blues are gone...
Oh, gone...

Come and lay your hands on me.

Wednesday, December 17, 2014


when there is happy moment...i tend to think of it's expiring date....
and same goes to sad moment...

so, it will expired isn't it?


how long?

just...wish those happy moment stay and those sad ones rotten and fade away....

too selfish am i?

i just wish all of us will stay this....always~

Monday, December 15, 2014

let in let out let go

before as a kid...i used to be this little naive girl who just let everyone in and made friends with everybody on earth because i thought human are suppose to be friends...

then i grew up in this little school who taught me that human are nothing like that...

then i grew up even more somewhere far from home and i see, owh actually if you met the right one your life won't be so bad...

and then now i know, not everyone that you let in, gonna make you their world, and same goes to your own self....
it's the hardest thing to see who's right and who's wrong for the key is to let in and try...
and don't keep hope so high because those who make you happy will eventually from time to time make you sad too...
so i try, i let people in, not as much as my 'naive' time...but still i let them in....
and i think, i try and i live along....
 the true one shall stay, wrong one shall gone by time,...
so i let go the feeling of belongings...
i let that feeling go...
the feeling of someone is belong to me... more..
i belong to no one and no one is belong to me...
this way of life is simpler and less hurt....but yeah, at the end of the day you tend to find yourself have exactly no one true by your side...but at least no fake one too....

Friday, December 12, 2014

oh God....

my side is thinking bout exams that's coming in the next 9 days....yeah 9 freaking days left! >.< 
and another side, thinking bout procrastinating, lazy, giving up. so hard to start, and all those negative stuff that won;t make myself study...urghhhh

really sick of these feelings!

when am i gonna get it that i'm the only one who can safe myself from darkness, no one is coming to take me to the bright side, if i can't bring myself there, then, i;m not gonna get there....

Phrak ei...chuai che duai....sathukkkk

why am i so hopeless? ;(((

Saturday, December 06, 2014

till when u gonna be a loser?

till when u gonna be a loser sumy?

control your mind!

don't make every day goes by so hard by searching for reasons to not be happy!

and just make yourself study please!

that's your purpose of being here...not trolling around, having heavy feelings, care, feeling bad or what so ever time consuming useless things!


get back to your sense!

why are u so lost?!

it's that hard to study?

don't you want this? 

don't you love this?


no, nothing to blame know...environment never affecting any of you study behaviour before, why now?
why care?
why bother?
why put other's mood on yourself?

there is time you need to wake up and be happy on your own...
people have their up and down time...
and you can't be responsible for every down or up of them...

and you?

yeah, when u have your up and down, do you think people even care?

you are always 'fly alone', lone ranger or what ever they call it right?

so why bother attaching?


stop feels too much, stop cares too much!


do your stupid studying and get there!

pass the exams!

Tuesday, December 02, 2014

sumy seriously

sumy seriously?! since when your happiness is based on others?
since when??!!
come back to your sense!
you can do this!
yeah, drifted away by that much!!
omg omg omg what have i done to myself?!
ok sorry for that~ ;pp

thank God for today....all of sudden, i feel like i'm fully awake!
so much to study sumy!
and still keep on 'layaning' feelings and people who just as stress as you and they create their own pollution...and you are so involved...goshhh since when ko kisah dunia nie??
study pleaseeeee!!!
keep your head clear!!!
chayok!!!!! >.<