Genetically related

i never know him...

i never even call him 'Appa'

i never even know what it's like to have him by my side, or to have a more than 2 person in a family...

but do u believe in heredity personality?? heredity guts? and heredity view??

it's true...

i never see how he walks...

i never see how he laughs...

i never see how he speaks, i don't even know how his voice be sounded like...

but..

every inch of him...

is actually there inside me....

my mum said;

u like guitar? just like him...

u don't like that?? just like him...

u do this thing this way?? out of million people...only him will do it this way...u just like him...

but

every time my mum said that...

i'll record it in my mind and will never do it again...

because i never forget and forgive him...never...

however,

why i keep want someone that i don't even know??

why i keep missing someone who barely know my existence??

why i keep repeat doing something that keep reminding me that i'm actually apart of him??

because i'm his daughter...

the way i think, the way i walk, the way i react to things which is written in the DNA can't be changed...

i'm so much like him that i am sometime wanna run away from impossible, run away from myself~

i never have him by my side, he never been there for me...

but

heredity thingy...make me feel like he's always there...always there with me...

always been there within me...

every time i miss him...i will just....look at myself in the mirror...

because i even have his nose, his mouth, his cheek, and shape....

Thank God for such a valuable rule...

at least, i know my father...from myself~