tired

i am tired...

i am tired of taking care...

tired of making decision...

tired of giving advice...

tired of giving opinion...

but she is so lost...

plus ego...

ego that she will bring to her grave...

never let go even how much i hope to be able to go through it...

but she always need decision, opinion, advice and care...

because she is so lost...

how much i wish to be taken care of...but taking care instead...

i am so tired...

but maybe this is how i am supposed to be...

a protector...

whom i always wish to be one...

i want to protect her...

help her...

support her...

but right now i am so tired...

but..but..but...

no matter how much i use it...

i still have to do it...

because it is not a choice...

but a RESPONSIBILITY...

i shall be there for her...

and keep the line distance...

i shall not cross it...

respect, and help plus support...

she has been taking care of me...

maybe this is the purpose...

to take care of her...

she has created one very useful person...

to help her back, to support her...

i shall endure...and try my best to keep her happy and safe...

if only she will listen to me...

if only she does listen to me...

if only she see what i see...

if only she know what i know...

if only the ego will vanish away...

if only i know how...

yes, if only i know how..

i should know how...

how to deal with it...

it will be better...

it's all come to me...again

once said ''u can't fix others, fix yourself''

so i shall stand again...and do it again...and do it better

-I SHOULD-