i don't

who said i'm not appreciate my time at home (actually i just post in previous post;ppp), i am actually in so much mood to study...i just can't wait to start like everybody else...i love home, of course
i just want to go back to study life...i feel so much useless here...my brain is also getting rusty...my hand even shaking to write something because i haven't hold a pen for so long...my typing is also getting slow because all i type on this keyboard is just space bar to pause/play movie and some other functions....
i just hate being rusty...i just hate gaining weight, and i just hate being not to know something...i want to study
most of all i hate being a burden plus can't even rely on...i wish i will get to study fast...and finish 6 years of it fast n start houseman, and start working fast. So at least she won't be in so much of burden....God, bless me~