Thursday, September 29, 2011

Ego kills, brag boring me, truth is ugly....

(i tell u,read to the end...don't stop half way, i may be not as what u think;p)

i faced lots types of people...
and the most among students are 'i'm the best' , 'i know everything' , 'i'm better then u' and 'oh, they are so annoying'
these thought play inside of most students head nowaday...
and 'what make u thing i have to be less stubborn than u do?'
i don no how i come to this conclusion but yes; all of this is true...

certain people, they don't accept other people to be their leader, i guess because in her head 'she know nothing, or maybe, arhh i can be a better leader than u do' or 'who are you to be one?!'

but please, when it comes to u to be one, u don't accept it....but when others do, u comment, mocking and hell yeah, lots of complain.... =_='' uuurrgghh boring....

then comes to ego...yeah, this type of people are hugging their ego, and praise it, embrace it and admire it....
sorry quite harsh here, but yes, people with ego will hurt to read this, or maybe just read the title (above) they will directly roll their cursor away....
hmm
well, ego person, have pride (i didn't mean those who don't, don't have one) but their pride are to be polished, spray with diamond solution and put high above others....
it is a don't-touch thing....
it is a 'your highness' thing....
urrgghhh another boring =_=''

but hell yeah, that is people, this kind of people, don't know what 'thank u' , 'sorry' , 'i love u' things...
they feel like it is so ashameful a shameful thing to be said....because in their head is revising 'who is she to get sorry from me?' 'who is he to get my love' 'who is she to be thank you for, one day she also will need my help'

urrgghhh =_=''' (u know what i mean)

brag..another thing...uurrrrggghhhh!
i can't stand a brag because i hate it!

when u do something great, no need to brag it to the world, lets others do it to u then it will be more proud of....
u brag ur own thing, OMG...boring! =_=''
one; i'm not jealous, two; ok, i know it girl, no need to repeat, three; i was about to praise u but then u praise ur own self already, so it becomes boring!!! =_=''

jealousy;
there maybe those who think 'omg, she made me suffer! she need to get it back!'
but please la wey....
maybe a person not even realize what she has done....
and u want to take revenge on such a 'i don't even know u hurt' person? urrghhh boring....

(below -red- is boring part,u can escape;p)
when my friend has friend, i will not jealous, because jealous means not friend, so, i'm not jealous and i am your friend....
urgghhh boring words i know...
=_=''

but i can see certain of people, they try to make other people jealous...
they brag, they tell, they made up story (not made up la, but make it more interesting;p)
just to see another person jealous, hey i tell u ar.... if me, i will just be happy with u, and maybe i'm regret to be the 'interfere' person between u guys....
because i know, nothing is forever, so i choose not to tie any heart to anyone, one day they gonna leave u anyway...

(interesting again, i guess)
attention seeker; urrghhh another boring case...
if i'm not going to u, u not reply my message, try to make me jealous and hurting me in what so ever way u can....but all i can do is smile and u piss off...
what do u want from me?!
u know i can only give u 50%....
well u know u r needed by someone else too...let she give u another 50% la....
what to do with me?
if i give u 100% then the other person i mention will of cos jealous....
haihhh
another boring =_=''

haihhh

so as conclusion, my life is so complicated...
i have to deal with all these type of people....
but don't get me wrong, i am also being listed as bad character is their life too for sure....
because no one is perfect....
the are flaws every where....

ego, self center, jealous, brag, bossy, commentator, doubt, never say sorry, never say thank u, attention seeker, cepat terasa, 'counter' haha berkira, i always right, i'm better than u' and many more....
not everyone has every list above, and not everyone don't even have one....me? of kos i have all?isn't it?;p

i'm kind of bad....not nice and alot more bad thing about me...
and i writing this just to make a review....a boring review about life....i wrote half way long ago, and now added to be posted....hheheh

maybe one day when i read it, i will remember what kind of life i used to have...
THIS IS NOT SARCASTIC....
DID NOT MEAN TO POINT TO ANYBODY...
just review about life....don't take it biggies but think about it....
let us all review our own self...
what is the intention/NIAT of us inside towards each other....

sincere? or just to replace someone? just to fulfill the need, or just to make collection of friends?
i wanna have as many friends as i can? or i want to show to the world that how much KI i have? haha every people have their own intention to friend with someone....

(boring again -red -,u can escape)
but for me...
they just come into life without i realize and they fulfill my day....
they make me learn, adapt, try my best and sometime i learn, i adapt, happy and also hurt....

i don't know what they want from me, or why they friend with me...
all i know is i want to be their friend and share good time together, because one day we gonna go far away from each other....

i appreciate all friendship i have...
i never mind about ranking in friends, because i know i'll be nearly last one to everyone, hehe

so, i'll try my best to be their friend....
i'll try my best not to let them hurt and try my best to to hurt my own self....
attachment is always hurt because there is farewell....
so, maybe u can see my attachment to everyone is not so strong....or maybe it seems strong but inside what i memories is 'this gonna hurt me one day, this gonna take away my smile, this gonna put me into such hell if i let it be 100%'
so, seem to be 100% of me is just 50-80%....
i can't give more....
u may thing i'm hypocrite but all the smile, laugh and happiness we share is never lie....it just that i will hold back a bit to make sure less pain we get.....

ok, that's is all....
maybe i'm gonna delete this post after 24 hr i post....because it is quite true and hurt to read...
and u may thing i am wrong n try ur best to defense the feeling...
but yes...truth is always ugly.....

0 wht's on ur mind??: