i never did...hard enough...

i never pray hard enough...

i never study hard enough....

i never love hard enough...

i never care hard enough...

i never concern hard enough...

everything i did in life is in ignorance level...

because i'm always too scared to go deeper...

deeper makes me hope more...and when i hope, if i fail, i'll get hurt...

there are lots of reasons why people fail in life...

one of it is scared to be successful...

because i can't accept the fact that  what i'm getting is worse than what i used to achieve...

God...i shall pray more...

at least You will hear what i have to say...

at least...I'm not alone like that...