God, can i plan now? will it be ok?

God, i have been wondering if i can plan or imagine or fantasizing bout my future now??... i wish it will be real and i can start planing how i'm gonna live..how i'm gonna study n how i am gonna enjoy it...but all still seem blur to me...like nothing is confirmed...and what if i start planning?? will it bring sorrow again? can i dream about it?? most of all...can i HOPE?? God, u give me such a terrible nervous ever in my life...but i appreciate it....because i know...without this, i will not even been thinking or talking to YOU....bless me, forgive me...guide me...