It's a part of me

it's a part of me that love to be a good person....
it's a part of me that love to be as bad as i could...
it's a part of me that want to do it right....
it's a part of me that don't know how to do it right....
it's a part of me that love thinking out of box....
it's a part of me that can't think far because there is no enough space for it...
it's a part of me that love musics...
it's a part of me that find it's noisy...
it's a part of me that love playing drum, playing guitar...
it's a part of me that feel so tired of practicing....
it's a part of me that want to be beautiful....working so hard towards it...
it's a part of me that feel so tired of it...can't fight it anymore...
it's a part of me that love fun, weird thing...
it's a part of me that can't take it when it is fun, weird and over board...
it's a part of me that i can take it to be hurt...
it's a part of me that feel so tired of being hurt...
it's a part of me that want love...
it's a part of me that hate love...
it's a part of me that want real life...
it's a part of me that keep telling me...this is real life...
it's a part of me that say ocean is small....
it's a part of me that i can't imagine how big is it...
it's a part of me that say i can always be someone great...
it's a part of me that say...it is impossible already...
it's a part of me that say i can dream as high as i could cause God going to help if i work hard...
it's a part of me that say...i can't dream too high...i am just ordinary person...how can i do that?
it's a part of me that want a better life...
it's a part of me that say..it's ok, this is enough...
it's a part of me that always want to be a saint...
it's a part of me that saying i'm a demon....
it's a part of me that is so exited of the world...
and it's a part of me that say...the world is full of shit....

well...all this parts made me who i am...
all this part made me who i am...
made up my self appearance....
made up my identity...
made up my behaviour...
made up my personality...

and of all...it's some part of me that always wanna fight for a better me...
there is a part of me that's saying...i can do better next time...

even so...there is a part of me that is so scared...
scare to go on...scare to dream...to think....to fight and to even face it...
it is so scary that i can't breathe...
suffocated...
so thin air to take in....just to live....
but i'll fight anyway...because there is no way to run in this world of fate...
it's all based on me....even based on how am i to fight it...
people may find it is easy....and they tell me it is easy....
and when things get hard on them...i wish i'll be there to tell the same...
because people need each other...

and one thing for sure....all the parts of me are saying...i'll be ok :)
IT WILL BE OK :)

^^ Ariana Grande - Put Your Hearts Up ^^

Lemme see you put your hearts up, yeah Lemme see you put your hearts up, yeah

If we give a little love, maybe we can change the world

You think you're so small

Like you're itty bitty.

Just one match in the lights of the city

Walking by strangers on the side of the street

Like a quarter in a cupp'll get 'em off on their feet, like

You think you're never gonna make your mark

Sit back and watch the world while it falls apart, like

Out of sight out of mind, like, like

It's just a waste of time,

Like, like, like

Hey Yeah Yeah Yeah

Hey Yeah Yeah

If We Give A Little Love

Maybe We Can Change The World

I Said

Hey Yeah Yeah Yeah

Hey Yeah Yeah

Sing it if you with me

All you boys and all you girls

Let me see you put your hearts up, yeah

Let me see you put your hearts up, yeah

If We Give A Little Love

Maybe We Can Change The World

Wishing on a shooting star in the sky

We can do anything if we try

Can't ressurect ghandi

Ressurect king but

If we put our heads together

We can do anything like

You don't have to be a billionare

You don't have to have

Much too show how much care

Like give a wink

Give a kiss

Like give a little happiness

Like like like

Hey Yeah Yeah Yeah

Hey Yeah Yeah

If We Give A Little Love

Maybe We Can Change The World

I Said

Hey Yeah Yeah Yeah

Hey Yeah Yeah

Sing it if you with me

All you boys and all you girls

Let me see you put your hearts up, yeah

Let me see you put your hearts up, yeah

If We Give A Little Love

Maybe We Can Change The World

Don't let em bring you down now, down now

Don't let em bring you down now, down now

And get up and just love now love now

And get up and just love now love now

Don't let em bring you down now, down now

Don't let em bring you down now, down now

And get up and just love now love now

And get up and just love now love now

Hey Yeah Yeah Yeah

Hey Yeah Yeah

If We Give A Little Love

Maybe We Can Change The World

I Said

Hey Yeah Yeah Yeah

Hey Yeah Yeah

Sing it if you with me

All you boys and all you girls

Let me see you put your hearts up, yeah

Let me see you put your hearts up, yeah

If We Give A Little Love

Maybe We Can Change The World

Let me see you put your hearts up, yeah

Let me see you put your hearts up, yeah

If We Give A Little Love

Maybe We Can Change The World

Hey Yeah Yeah Yeah

Reality do kill...;(

Gosh...why am i such a dreamer...
i don't even know my own status...
Gosh...wake up sumy wake up...
wake up from your dream...

My new hair style!!^^

for my birthday^^ hehe tq cah Ama^^

Homie...

It has been 3 weeks i'm at home^^

mcm biasa...me n my mum..haha xsah satu ari xgaduh;p

but it make me happy to hear all her leteran....haha it makes me feel so much...at home;p

but i try my best not to mess things up here...hehe

so far??

huhuww so much lonely....have no friends at all at home...

the one i used to have...she is so busy with her new job...

and my bestie liza..not yet going back from her college...still got workshop to attend...

haihhh

but actually....i'm not really boring;p

i just got my new guitar;p

hehe just start practicing...so far just in the chords thing....not yet cover power chord;p

and i'm finding for a job...lots! but none is approved by my mum =_='''

huhuww she don't want me to work somewhere with hard work to do...or 'overtime'...huhu

so now is searching for something relax2...haha i bet nothing relax out there....let's hope i'll find one...i also want da relax2 one larrhh;p hehehe why not right??;p

kachaooo^^

nearly 21 years old..olledy;p

this birthday???
i think i'm more matured...serious??haha a bit may be;p
i don't really think about birthday thing already...
i don't really wonder of what i'll get or who'll wish me birthday wishes...
but all i think is, have i matured enough for this number?
am i suit to be called 21 years old??
and what are my achievement so far??
and what about others?? albert eistein? what did he do at this age of him??
bill gate?? what did he do at this age? obama?? what did he do??
haha those name are big i know...just some kind of thinking i've in weeks....haha
who am i to compare to them...but it is not wrong to think big...right??
and 1 more great person...my mum...at this age...i think she capable of lots of things that i can't even imagine of...haha i'll ask her very soon!;p
i just wonder...who will i become soon....
how is it eh??
and haha 21 already....congrate sumy! u make it!!^^