if only....

if only i'm not afraid of pain that love will give...

if only i can trust people with full of my heart...

if only there is no doubt in any relation i have...

if only i can love someone with full of my heart...

u will never face all of this...

yes, i'm holding back...

i'm afraid of 'too close' statement....

when it comes to 'too close', distance is my next step for sure....

i can't bring myself to love someone in 'so much'...

i don't know what future brings...so all i can do is distance myself from pain...

because i can't bare it to hurt from any of u...

i can't let myself to be let behind one day....

i just can't do this in the way u all want....

sorry~