Friday, December 24, 2010

อยู่คนเดียว

อยู่คนเดียว
(OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO)
~Bird Thong Chai~

อยู่คนเดียวกับตอนเย็นเย็น

และก็ไม่เห็นว่าจะต้องมีใครใครมาเคียงข้าง

อยู่ลำพังกับความอ้างว้าง

นั่งมองดูแสงรำไรของดวงตะวันจนลับไป

เหม่อมองจันทร์ที่ลอยขึ้นมา

ดึกดื่นอย่างนี้แล้วเพื่อนที่มีที่ดีที่สุดคือหมอนข้าง

อยู่เหงาเหงาอย่างคนที่ปล่อยวาง

ก็อยู่อย่างนี้จนชิน

*ไอ้คนไม่รู้ก็คอยจะถามทำไมไม่หาใคร

ซักคน เข้าใจ และรักจริง

ก็ทุกคน ดูแสนดี ดูจริงใจ

ก็ยินดีที่ได้เจอแต่ no no.. no no no no.. wo.. wo..

**ก็เพราะเวลาฉันรัก รักจริง

มันมาไม่นิ่งเอาตอนเธอมาทิ้งไป

คนมันรักมากมันก็เลยเสียดาย

มันปวดใจจะบอกใครก็ไม่ช่วย

เพราะรักเองเจ็บเอง

ก็อยู่อย่างคนไม่มีแฟน

จะหาใครมาแทน ก็กลัวว่าเขาจะมาซ้ำ

ก็เดี๋ยวนี้คนน่ะใจดำ

เลยคบกันเที่ยวแบบขำขำ

ก็เจ็บประจำ ก็เลยต้องอยู่คนเดียว

(Thai song, sad, meaningful,^^)

Thursday, December 23, 2010

NEW YEAR!!!!

is waiting, counting down, hoping, wondering for New Year 2011!!!!!^^

I hope this new year will bring new good things into my life......

2010??

completely ruining myself this year.....
i swear i will not forget this 2010 ever in my life!!
=_=''

this is a year of lost.....
hahahaha
besides things, i also a bit lost of my own tract!!!

i completely forget who i am and what i am supposed to do!!
OH MY GOD!
i don't want to blame anyone but myself!
so lost Sumy!
=_=''

so?

New Year??

YES!!!
i have to have plan and stick to it!!!!
i can't do all this 'lost' things anymore!
i have to be alert of life and be more mature physically and mentally!
haihhhhh

so long to go and may be totally rough!
but

i'll do my best!!!!!
ALL DA BEST!!!!!!!
^^

THERE MUST BE A CHANGE IF YOU WANT A CHANGE!!!!!
CHAYOK!!!!
(^_^)

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Teacher

today.....
i get something....
'Teacher comes in many form'

This quote....
haha
guess why??

^^

i learned a lot!
so...
this is just like outdoor learning....
haha

depend on your own self!!^^

Balik.....

At last i'm here in semenanjung.....
haha
this is the longest journey ever!!
haihhh....
i'm here in LCCT at 6.00pm, but da.....
flight tomorrow to kb by 7 am....
so?
YAP!
stay all night long wait for the flight......
haihhhhh
this is the hardest part.....
all alone.....
nyway....
never forget Balqis and all friends who are always care and worry.....
^^
thnks to Ama....still call me even 2 am already!!!haha
thnks to Balqis
such a good time being accompanied^^
thnks to Audrey....message me even late night already.....
thnks to Kay.....message me either^^

study, challenge and hard time.....
yeah...
always be together huh?

no life if no pain, no tears, no hardship.....
^^

chayok2!

this holiday?
haha
lots to do and handle......
won't take this as granted anymore....
i have responsibility!
as daughter, as granddaughter......
as a human!
haha
i have responsibility to take care of Ama, Muffin, grandma and friends^^

....Ama....
Can't wait to be with ama....
Ama must be so lonely for such along time....haihhhhh

.....Muffin....
Can't wait to take care of you.....
You must be so suffer.....
God, give him strength....
=_=.....

......Liza, Nock, Pem, Peam....
~my friends~
at home....
i have not much close friends....
just four of them....
hahaha
who say just??
they are everything!!! Love you!!
can't wait to lepak ya??
hehe



Happy Holiday!!!
^^

Friday, November 19, 2010

pause

if talking about rumination.....
my life now is in 'pause' stage!

haha

sem 3 just over.....
^^

happy?
naaahhh....not so....
i'm worried~

worried bout lots lots of things....

1.must be result.....

2.must be bout my new position.....

3.must be new era, new sem, new env, new experience.....

but there is a quote;

Don't deal with the past, don't worry for future and do the best for today!^^

so?

hope evrything is ok....

if you have done your best than there is nothing to worry about......
^^

just wait and see how it will be~
life is not a life when there is no hardship and challenges....

chayok for new sem!!!

Sem 4!!!
wait for me!!!
^^

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

cabaran final

1. Emosi!

2. Labtop! n sewaktu dgn nyer.....

3. Study!

4. Kawan!

5. Motivasi dlm diri.....berkurangan......

hahahahahahaha
tgh gler skunx......
mentally depressed.....

hope it will be better.....

Paper Anatomy Haiwan esk da.....
tp skunx....
lam diri....
jiwa terkacau!
haihhhhh

sabar3......
sabar je satu jln penyelesaian yg agak bgs......
sabar sumy sabar.......

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Life Component

Life has to go on and on....
Life component;

Child;

~ play, cry, smile, happy, mum, dad, family, friends, teacher, study, homework .......

Teenager;

~ happy, sad, family, teacher, study, homework, friends, 'finding for someone'.......

Uni life;

~ happy, sad, lecturers, seniors, family, study, assignment, time, roomate, 'finding for someone'

so?

in our life.....
eemmm
in my life.....

i stdy for me n my mum.....
i live my life and hope for someone to fulfill it sometime.....
such a lonely life if thinking about love live.....
yes,,,
its too early for it huh?
this is a stdy time right?
but.....
the heart has a hole.....
a deep hole....
wait for a fill.....
a meaningful filling....
a care which never get one before.....

now?
accidentally falling in love is hurt....
hahahaha
not the time for it....
but life component as i said....
inside....
is seeking and looking.....
not that desperate but needed....
haihhhh
how to get rid of this feeling huh???

suffering......

haha

cool2....
stdy is always da first rank for me.....
just feel like its not complete.....
maybe this is not the time for me have one.....
and the one i hope is far far far away.....
haha
cheers for the broken!!!
let's party!!!!
^^

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Its all bout love......



Terrified, Katherine Mcphee
Songwriters: Dioguardi, Kara; Reeves, Jason;

Featuring: Jason Reeves

You, by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong
You're the thing that's right

Finally made it through the lonely
To the other side

You say it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only life

And this could be good
It's already better than that
And nothing's worse
Than knowing you're holding back

I could be all that you need
If you let me try

You say it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only

I only said it 'cause I mean it
I only mean 'cause it's true
So don't you doubt what I've been dreaming
'Cause it fills me up and holds me close whenever I'm without you

You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only
LIFE.....LIFE......

Friday, November 05, 2010

RUN!

ok!
clear your head....
and go for it!!
^^
anatomy!
physiology!
shw!
statistics!
sak!

just do da best!
result?
forget it!
its not your job to think about it....
God knows wht's da best for you.....
but now just do da best!!
time is running out!
come on!
GO!GO!GO!
CHAYOK SUMY!!!
^^

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

responsibility

responsibility......
as human
we are born to play own own role to this world.....
start,to God....
to mother....
father.....
ourselves....
and without our realize....
it makes us grow from time to time.....
but it also can take us down.....
so
when it comes to burden as there are lots of responsibility to be handled and accomplished...
so hard to think about future when today are so hard to be passing through....
so hard,so pain,so torture and disastrous....

plan by plan fail.....
but never fail to plan.....
but also so tired to plan....
which we know already that it won't work......
but we still have to do to survive.....
yeah.....
have to....
MUST!
because no one will handle this but ourselves.....
we have no secretary.....
haha
wish to have one...but impossible to go.....
so....
just try from day to day....
walk even know there are torn every where in front....beside....or even inside.....
but as human...giving up is normal but there is not forever.....
start again is a common word to use......
yes.....
have to start again!
start....
and just remember that there is no 'too late' or 'too bad'......
have to make up inside strength to continue this hardship and battle......
have to think positive as never born to be one.....
have to motivate own self as never have own motivator to tell tell you what to do.....
have to smile because others are sad to...so don't make it worst because its already worse.....
have to take care because others also need care as we are.....
so....
this burden is just so much to list down.....
as listing is also a burden.....
because readers are requesting our care too.....
names,things...are sensitive......
haha....
see?
everything is burden.....
but just smile and go on.....
because everyone faces this burden too.....
no one to blame but please......

responsibility is a simple word that is really complex to explain.....
different people different view....opinion...and comment.....
readers may laugh of what we wrote.....
some may agree....
some may defense.....
nothing we can do to satisfy others but ourselves.....
just write what we feel and stop thinking about others......
correction always follow after 1st 2nd or 3rd comments....
but inside still fight for the right.....
see??
this is also a burden......
and now just think what is this related to the title responsibility??
haha
funny.....
as responsibility is everywhere.....
it may come with manners.....
those who have manners also have a higher responsibility as human as she or he has to think and think and think,so that there will always be a good way to pass by as others will always consider you as you always do the same to them....
so......
just smile and go on!
yes!
go on!

these words are express in the complex, confuse, stress and blur time.....
so. the idea may mix,blur,confuse and yeah...hard to understand....
sorry.....
;(




Tuesday, June 22, 2010

new sem^^

just in da blink of eyes.....

i'm here in LCCT(again), waiting for da flight to bintulu~

huhuwww

can't wait to start new sem!
based on da previous rslt.....
i hv to work harder this time!!!
just a bit more to get what i want!

God~
gives me strenght.....
i seriously want tht score~~~
just a bit more to go but seems like lots of work needed for it~~
=_=
sometimes...feel like lots of things to focud on...
and i just lost da point!!
lost the track~~
please......
=_=

Thursday, June 03, 2010

~My Holz~

just in a blink of eye....da holiday has come to its end....
what hv i done through out this holz??
haha

A LOT!!!!

first of all, i have to say tht i am really..really change....personally....
hehe

-sumithra-

(b4 holz)

-wake up late daily....=_=
-stay up late at night(movie!!^^)
-lazy person!(espclly da house works)
-some kind of selfish
-pending...hehe

(during holz)

-of cos i wake up early,evrydy!!!!at 7.30am(early 4 me....)
-go to bed REALLY early!(9.30pm)...its just really impossible for me!
-i'm doing all da house works excpt cooking( ;P)...
-done lots of sacrifice!
-but still pending in some ways (hehe totally can't help much on this...;P)

lots of changes huh?

haha this is all 'bout my responsibility towards my granny....
she's getting ill recently(high blood pressure)

so?

she's here with my mum n i....(we used to stay apart)
n da prblm comes when my mum has to go for her work
n the rest?
i have to take care of evry single things 'bout granny when my mum's left...
-food
-medicine
-safety when she wants to do anything...(for ur info she's some kind of hrdwrking n cn't stay still....=_=)

n

my doggy!he's sick...in very....=_=
i hv to give him lots of medicines n clean up his mouth,nose n genital area which get affected....
once a month,he has to be injected for his antibiotic too....hohohoho....vet already^^

haha
to tell u da truth i'm totally sick n stress with these!
i hv to sacrifce my time frm enjoying movies,hanging out with frens n so much things for granny n Muffin(hv i mentioned his name?hehe)
but now something inside me feels really proud n love to be a new person.....
i learn to sacrifice da joy of myself n taking care of others....
i'm a single daughter...so this is my 1st time to take care others!haha
hope i can keep up n be this new sumy who totally hrdwrking(i think) ever hehe
^^chayo2^^



Tuesday, April 13, 2010

countdown balik!!!!

huhuhuhuhwww
dah akhir sem 2 dah!
so??
NAK BALIK SEMENANJUNG DAH!!!
hahaha~
xsabar nk jmp mak n puppy kt umah~~
sori ya...mcm childish ckit....
tp seriously windu kt umah!
hohohoh
balik 25 April nie but hv to stay at KL for a night...
so sampai kelantan pn 26 t.....
yeye!
but....
now??
FINAL EXAM!!!
its like killing me!!!
wawawa
God, please bless n guide me!
huuhhuuhu.....
^^

Saturday, April 10, 2010

~Ma besday~

12.00am in da morning of 9 April 2010, a great knock from da door shocked me~

when opening da door, 3 of my frens just burst in all together with boxes in their hands

"SURPRISE!!!"

Audrey gave me present, hug n kiss me on chick. Nad wished me happy besday n hug me too. And, Balqis just wished me n enter da room (no surprise, she's is a bit anti on hugging,kissing n sewaktu dengan nya~hehehe)sori bal~just wanna say


Nad gave me a giant box, entitle Kuan A/P Eh Muak from Mahkamah Kota Bharu....
WHAT???!!!

I really shocked on this,hahahaha
my mum is really lovely and surprising all da time.
Since school, she never miss to make me a birthday surprise even i'm here in Sarawak!!!
she's packing team with Nadwa n yeah....surprise!
Have no idea since when Nadwa got my mum'n number~~huhuwww

I just directly call my mum tht night n saying thank you for the cute teddy bear. It is really cute n ma frens started teasing me tht we r just da same,....physically~~=_=.......
hahaha


Then, just after i called my mum, then, i entered da room, a wonderful surprise came again for me from Fika n Shirin...
hhahahah really had no idea since when they entered ma room....hahaha~so nice la my frens


We ended up with singing a besday song,finishing da cake and present opening time~
haha
i got lots...
and almost all of them just in teddy type~
hahaha
don't know why...maybe i'm really suit with it.....^^
The presents are so nice as u can see below......



Bears time~
hhahahaha
We had a chat until early morning but yes...lots of assgmnt r waiting to be done....
huh`
really spoiled da mood.....
hehe
=_=......

All of ma frens just went back to their room and the card exploring session just started for me

I read my mum's card 1st
And seriously i cn't keep my tears for long.....
The words were really touching~
to tell the truth, this is the hardest time for me~
i cry 5 times a day before my besday n yes on this besday another 5 times of crying....
the stress is just everywhere n seems sticky to me.
I just can't let myself happy even on my own besday~
huhuhuwwwww

But now i'm really in a happy mood and have more spirit to face the final exam~
Hopefully i will done well in this exam....really hope that the result is okay so that i could give something to my mum~
Really wanna give the best to her......
Sincerely...
haha
~I LOVE U AMA~
\(^_^)/

N SPECIAL THNKS TO MA FRENS!
~THNKS A LOT~

`AND THNKS TO ALL DA WISHES FROM FACEBOOK, MESSAGES AND EMAIL~
^^THANK YOU^^

Tuesday, April 06, 2010

ma new look!



Yeah!
This is my new look.....
Huhuhuuwwww

How is it??
Okay???

That evening of Sunday,4th April , my friends and i went out kampus for an outing. There were AUDREY, NADWA, BALQIS n ME.....Audrey recommended me a saloon in pasar Bintulu for the hair cutting...i drove the car and finally we were in front of the Unisex Saloon of Bintulu, Sarawak...i took a deep breath and walked in da saloon.....

"Adik mau potong macam mana ek?" asked the Chinese barber
"Xtau tp nk pendek la drpd yg skrg nie...." I said but still thinking 'bout it...should i??should i cut my hair for that short?i never try it before....hahaha what a nervous....
will it suit me??huhuwwww

And before i suggesting my choice, Audrey just came out with her choice for me...
n the style from da fasion book is really nice
but is it suitable for me??
how will it be huh??
wawawawa

The barber started his job with expert and fast.

Then, an hour past and i still couldn't figure out how it would be....
The barber kept smiling at me as he could see my 'worry' face!hehehe

And at last,the product is as you can see above~
the latest picture of me...
hahah~

i took pictures and email to Ama
haha
guess what she said?
"OH MY GOD!WHY IS IT TOO SHORT~"
but not that astonish~
she's just surprise but happy with it~
(^_^)

So now, i'm enjoying my new hair style which is really comfortable and free~
huhuww
no need to spend so much time in drying da hair after shower...
haha
yeah~
short hair is the best!
(^^)
A Special Thanks to my 'little' chipmunk~ Audrey~hehehe

Saturday, March 27, 2010

this 'sibuk gler' sem

DKHP SEMESTER 2 SESI 2009/2010
Wuh!
sem 2 mmg bnyk sgt benda2 br, msk lam hdp!
ingt blk.....
aduh!
penat nyer~~~
(+_+......
januari;-
  • msk lam kolej....ssn brg.....ssn locker....ssn segala bnd yg bleh dissn!hehe
  • jmp roomate (=_+)ish3~('kesygan ku')
  • pi kuliah 4 da 1st day!
  • jmp lecturer br......(^_^)
  • strt ada assgmnt 4 da 1st day!!!(>_<)
  • ADA AMALI 4 KALI SEMINGGU!!!
  • pi koko(kokurukulum berkredit) Stage Management guess wht? dpt jd SU~ (+_+)
  • perjumpaan blok I 4 da 1st time of 2010.... n guess wht? dpt jd BIRO AKADEMIK
  • pi ladang kongsi 2 for da 1st dy.....n guess wht? dpt jd tim.ketua ladang! (-_-............

itu yg dpt ingt sepnjg jan la....

feb??

dgn bnd2 yg 'dpt' dr ats.....

so jd la cmnie.....

  • SU~kn buat krts krj....tuk Program Delegasi Seni Budaya UPMKB (kn antr lam ms dua ari!!!!)
  • dah antr kn kn baiki tidak krg 5 kali
  • kn booking blk meeting + buat meeting + antr msj(ntah brp puluh da abis!)huhuwww
  • buat laporan
  • Prgrm bersama Petronas! family day.....(bwh stage management
  • BIRO AKADEMIK~attnd meeting xkrg 3 kali per week!!!! (=_=) >sbb nga buat prgrm tuk bdk MUET + survey bhs + jamuan blok + survey srt khbr + prgm rncngan MTM BIRO AKADEMIK
  • Jamuan blok.....bt majlis+persembahan......
  • terlibat Sukan Uniputra
  • Ldg~ bt report ldg + kedtgan + tnm pokok + bajak + gembur + n aktvti sewaktu dgnnya.... (prg 3 kali seminggu~)
  • involve lam jamuan for Sem 6 DKHP ~ back stge lak tue...penat nyer....
  • pi interview tuk jadi PEMBANTU UNIVERSITI (PU),tuk smbut junior masuk nxt sem (DAPAT!)
  • kursus PU kan ada lam cuti sem~(mksdnyer kn blk awl dr org len nnt!!!!!)huh~(saper srh?nk sgt...ambik kau!(sumy2~~~)(-_-.......
  • MAKOSRA
  • TEST!!!!!!!!!

hohoho~

smuanya asyik bersmbg.....

xtau mn nk letak titik~

maybe sikit bg org yg lg busy...

n maybe bnyk bg org yg relax gler....

for me???

hahaha penat gler....

leh bilang, ari mn yg tdo kul 1 (paling awl!)

hohohoho....

mac??

bln nie?

month of test + asggmnt + presentation + krj lain mcm biasa

  • TEST 2!!!!!!!!!!!!(mrkh? xyah tny!)(+_+......
  • asggment....kuar survey org sarawak+ gn KI thp maksimum!!!!huhuwww
  • presentation? selang 2 ari 1 !!!!!aduh!
  • RP foe EPT lg!
  • buat model pentas tuk SM jgk~
  • buat lprn tuk SM + blok
  • MAKOSRA (tp dah tarik diri....sbb mmg xsempat gler2!)huhuwww....kn jd AJK protokol....but got presentation lak lam ari yg sm! mn la sempat....
  • countdown FINAL EXAM!!!!
  • nk urus beli satu lg benda yg amt2 pntng!!!haha~ooopppps! secret!

pasnie??

haha~

countdown siap asggmnt + final exam + simpan brg + CIAO!!!!! + countdwn jd PU gak~hohohoh

nk msk bln april da....

my beloved month!!

hehehe nk countdwn umur 19 taun!

yeye!

(patut ke??)

dah tua la!!!!

\(>0<)/

huhuhwww

my sweet

~9 APRIL 2010~

!wait for me!

hope lepas nie leh relax ckit....

(^_^)

!!!chayo to myself!!!!!