Toxicity

have you ever been to a place where you stand there alone and you feel the fresh air passing by?

but then come a person stand by your side, and give some energy towards you and the environment...and if it's positive, then you will feel like the environment is still nice, but then if it's negative then you feel like the environment has been polluted...

so you start to have feelings that the air is dirty, smoke and harmful for your lungs...

then comes the suffocation....

so you try your best to stay in that kind of environment...you wear masks...change is from day to day to keep it clean...

but then have you ever run out of 'mask' to wear? like literally 'forgot to go to the store?'

and there you are..sitting and suffocating...

when am i gonna get used to it? when am i gonna get immune to this? when am i gonna let go of the fact that i have to create a better place...not the other people...

i shall stop blaming the surrounding and start getting my own oxygen tank...so that i can survive and stay healthy here...

well readers...sorry for such metaphor...i really don't know how to convey this in a better form...

God, lead me...