just really hope...there are some hopes...

God...guide me.

so that's the end of S episode...

yeah it ended...dramatically...
and im not saying im hurting or what...im just sad...
and might take a while...but one day i'm gonna be able to laugh at this...
yes! i'm strong!

so that's the end of S episode...

yeah it ended...dramatically...
and im not saying im hurting or what...im just sad...
and might take a while...but one day i'm gonna be able to laugh at this...
yes! i'm strong!

is there any hope at all?

is there any hope at all that i will be able to grads here?

it's not working...

it's not gonna work...seriously? where do you see yourself in this?

so what now?

so what now?
it's such a good week for my fluffy heart...someone is actually wanted to get to know me and be my friend...he wants to go out with me...but for now i'm gonna think that is real and honest ya?

i really don't know why am i even spend so much time on him and replying all his texts...he is not even someone i look myself ended up with...

i'm not playing game, and i'm still not sure if he isn't...

we have like 7 years gap! maybe that's what make me so thrill to see where this is going...it's always been my thing to go out with an older guy...oh God, my mum would kill me alive!

God, i can feel it down my spine that i'm playing with fire...

But why am i so tempted by it?

i really wanna see where this goes...God, guide me...is it wrong to try? or am i playing with something too dangerous? can i trust my own fate? can i trust me?

God, guide me....