HoMe

Finally...i got my holiday^^

so now i'm here in Tumpat....

so nice....

i never know how much i miss home till i'm here.....

i don't want to count down time to go back to UPMKB....

even just for a week....

i feel like i come back for a year....

i try to imagine that it is long...it is long...and it is enough.....

;(

k! ciao! i wanna enjoy my day with lots!lots!lots! of thing here....

and the most xcited thing is my new puppies!!!

there are five of them!!!!

^^

pye2~

suffering....

latest update;

i am in unconditionally 'crazy' with all 'livestock' related subjects i have this semester.....

the more 'livestock', the more they r killing me.....

oh My God....when i am going to love it? when i can bring myself to love this? OMG...when??

;(

i need passion to get the goal i want....if i continue to be like this, when can i touch it??

;(

so damn suffer inside!!!!!!!!!!!!

;(

?????????

someone asked me;

'sumy!what do u care in life?'
'sumy!what do u remember?'
'sumy!what are u doing?'
'sumy!where are u?where have u been? u can't always absent....'

and i asking my own self the same things....

surprisingly, the thing that i care is ......
the thing that i remember is ......
the thing that i always do until i forget the world is .....
and i always absent, not contact,not keeping in touch is because ......

OMG!

people can't focus because they have life problem with relations, health and money stuff, but me? emmmm ....... again....

so, conclusion?
i am workaholic do i?
=_=''

so sorry....it's not that i don't care....
but sometime, this thing make me hurt less, worry less and disappointed less compare to the other stuff in life....that's why i rather choose to care study and this kind of life compare to others.....

hmmm...happy,do i??
:(

Skyscraper

Skyscraper lyrics

It's been kinda tough
Running around in circles
Tryin' to find who I was
But now I know
I found myself
In the sky today
Don't get in my way!

Don't ever try to tear me down
I will be risin' from the ground
Like a skyscraper

Don't wanna make the same mistakes
Ya'll better start listenin'
Like a skyscraper I'm a new building
I'm a new building
I'm a new building
Skyscraper baby

The flood

The Flood

Cheryl Cole

Turn the lights out in the light house, I saw you coming
Felt the ship wreck, saw the wreckage, I heard you yelling
Just then, that's when I saw your reflection in the sand
Wondering where you were washed up, oh, I ran to the water

I can put my hands down in it
But I won't bring nothing up
Sitting on the shore all day
Waiting on the tide to come

But you can't hold on to water
It fills you up but never stays
It's only good to wash away today

And you're loving me like water
You're slippin' through my fingers' touch
A natural disaster, love
Bringing on the flood, the flood
Love me like a flood, a flood, bring it on

Stayed the night out by the beach house, it's all so quiet
Lit a candle by the window so you might find it
Hope you know you'll always have a place to call your home
Still, I can't help but think I could have saved you from drowning

I can put my hands down in it, yeah
But I won't bring nothing up
Sitting on the shore all day
Just waiting on the tide to come

But you can't hold on to water
It fills you up but never stays
It's only good to wash away today

And you're loving me like water
You're slippin' through my fingers' touch
A natural disaster, love
Bringing on the flood, the flood
Love me like a flood, a flood, bring it on

I knew the waves were rising
When I felt them all retreating
Went to take a dive in the deep end
Oh, what was I thinking?

But you can't hold on to water
It fills you up but never stays
It's only good to wash away today

And you're loving me like water
You're slippin' through my fingers' touch
A natural disaster, love
Bringing on the flood, the flood
Love me like a flood, a flood, bring it on

Rising and the falling of my tears
Rising and the falling of my tears that fill the ocean
The ocean, the ocean
My tears that fill the ocean, the ocean

once in awhile

that the heart is screaming...i'm HAPPY!!!!!^^

F**kin' Perfect

F**kin' Perfect

Pink

Made a wrong turn
Once or twice
Dug my way out
Blood and fire
Bad decisionsThat's alright
Welcome to my silly life

Mistreated
Misplaced
Misunderstood
Miss knowing it's all good
It didnt slow me down.

Mistaking
Always second guessing
Underestimating
Look I'm still around
Pretty, pretty please
Dont you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than
F**king perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing
You're f**king perfect to me

You're so mean
When you talk
About yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head
Make them like you instead
So complicated
Look how we all make it
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game
It's enough
I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons
I've seen you do the same

Oh
Pretty, pretty please
Dont you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than
F**king perfect

Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing
You're f**king perfect to me

The whole worlds scared
So I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking
Is an ice cold b***

So cool in line
And we try, try, try
But we try too hard
And it's a waste of my time

Done looking for the critics
Cause they're everywhere
They don't like my jeans
They don't get my hair

Exchange ourselves
And we do it all the time
Why do we do that?
Why do I do that?

Why do I do that?

Yeeeeaaaahhh
Oooooooh
Oh baby pretty please

Pretty, pretty please
Dont you ever feel
Like you're less than
F**king perfect

Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing
You're f**king perfect to me

You're perfect, you're perfect

Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing
You're f**king perfect to me

*quite harsh one but the meaning is soooo nice^^

(^_^)

ปล่อยวางเสีย.....

(^_^)

??????

now that my life has '???????????'

lots...lots...lots of confusion.....questions.....doubt.....and......haihhhhh

whatever i am going to say....it's all about CONFUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

why tht i keep messing up my brain??? =_='''

go away!!!!

ADHD?

emm...i have been thinking about my own self n suddenly....i remember about ADHD....

and i kind of having all the symptoms or is it just 'illusional' me?

ADHD stands for Attention-Deficit/Hyperactivity Disorder

ADHD shows itself as a persistent pattern of inattention and/or hyperactivity/impulsivity that is more frequent and severe than what is typically seen in ones' peers.

The symptoms affect children, teens, and adults;-

For the inattentive type

At least 6 of the following symptoms must have persisted for at least 6 months to an extent that is not consistent with one's peers:

• Careless mistakes/lack of attention to details
• Lack of sustained attention
• Poor listener
• Failure to follow through on tasks
• Poor organization
• Avoiding tasks requiring sustained mental effort
• Losing things
• Easily distracted
• Forgetful in daily activities

which....for my case...hehe

seem to be inattentive type....

i barely can focus on anything people r saying and kind of can't give full attention....

i will think of the other thing and finally i don't even listen to what they say.....

and yes, people call me...pending....;p

well, i don't know....may be it is just normal but seriously for all symptom above (for inattentive), i do experience all....and until now.....

i even lost my camera!!

;(

please...i think i need help......

or may be just over 'thinking'.... hehe

who we know it could be ;p

For the hyperactive/impulsive type

At least 6 of the following symptoms must have persisted for at least 6 months to an extent that is not consistent with one's peers:

• Fidgeting/squirming
• Leaving seat
• Inappropriate running/climbing
• Difficulty with quiet activities
• "On the go"
• Excessive talking
• Blurting out answers
• Can't wait turn
• Intrusive

TEST!!!

hahahaha i'm about to.....CRAZY!!!;p

well..test again.....

but i'm so busy running PTM.....

haihhhh

however,this will not take me down!!!!

SATHUK CHE THAM DAI.....

^^

PHRAK EI CHUAI CHE DUAI....

AMA!!! CHUAI CHE DUAI.....

fuh!

so nervous.....plus caffeine somemore....=_=''

chayok!!!^^

ciao!nak pi exam dah....

;p

Gift of A Friend

Gift Of A Friend
(by DEMI LOVATO)
Sometimes You think You'll Be Fine by Yourself
Cause a Dream is a Wish You Make all alone
Its Easy to Feel Like You Dont Need Help
But Its Harder To Walk On Your Own

You'll Change
Inside
When You
Realize
The World Comes To Life
and Everything's bright
From Beginning To End
When You Have a Friend
By Your Side
That Helps You To Find
The Beauty you are
When You'll Open Your Heart and
Believe in
The Gift of a Friend

The Gift of a Friend

Someone Who knows When Your Lost and Your Scared
There through The Highs and The Lows
Someone toCount On
Someone Who Cares
Besides You Where Ever You Go

You'll Change Inside
When You
Realize

The World Comes To Life
and Everythings bright
From Beginning To End
When You Have a Friend
By Your Side
That Helps You To Find
The Beauty you are
When You'll Open Your Heart and
Believe in
The Gift of a Friend

And When your Hope Crashes Down
Shattering To The Ground
You , You Feel All Alone
When You Don't Know Which Way To Go
And There's No signs Leading You home
You're Not Alone

The World Comes To Life
and Everything's bright
From Beginning To End
When You Have a Friend
By Your Side
That Helps You To Find
The Beauty you are
When You'll Open Your Heart and
Believe In
When You Believe In
When you Believe
The Gift of A Friend

nice song.....

^^