i wonder

i wonder how i'm gonna study without all these worries....
i wonder how that kinda night is...
i wonder how if i'm fully scholarship and having sufficient of everything...
i wonder how my result is by then...
will i be this demotivated?
will i be this hopeless and giving up?
i don't know how long am i gonna be able to stay here...
i don't know if i'm gonna be able to finish and grads like i always dream of...
i wonder....