i need 'my person'

i need 'my person'....

i don't know all of sudden i'm just so envy of those who have 'their person'...

you know, someone u text every night before sleep...

saying good morning and asking bout lunch...

not really a guy...nope...just 'my person'

someone you gonna ask, "it's ok if i date that guy" that kind of person...

but most of the time...

the one i opened up to, are already involved....

sadness of life, of my life...

i never really have 'my person' on my own...

they are always better off with someone else...

and it occurs to me that; shall i change the way i think?

the way i think that this person shall belong to that and that shall belong to this...

and i can't see whom i belong to...

just...never seem to have one...

maybe i'm too used to being alone that i can't fit into any 'person' relationship...

i just wish that i'll have one too...

but that's only if God allows...

maybe He knows better...

maybe i'm too often letting go that i don't deserve any....

but to let go is the hardest part...

and only God knows how hard that is...

but still, how can i restrain someone to me when clearly some else can make them happier...

i just...don't think i can make them happy...

i don't have confident in that kind of thing...really...

just God...i feel really thankful i have You...at least, You will always listen to my prayers...sathuk