sins

i never know it's this much sins to be a woman...
i know we are in the era where there is no discrimination and all...but it's in the DNA
that women are different from men and have so much of lacks and flaws in it...

i feel sorry for women...
sorry that we have so much emotions, hormones, and urge to want a guy so bad...
sorry for that women 'are told' or have the mentality that men are everything...that men are the
rule for women to be happy or sad...that their presence determine who we are or how good we should be...

rarely women around me stood up for themselves...want to be pretty for themselves, want to be thin for themselves or want to be intellectual for themselves...
they do it all for men...so that men will find it's ease for their eyes, ease for their life...

rarely women shut men down just to stay with friends but men do that all the time...

rarely women put anything else before their men...

but is that women's fault? i don't think so...

women are coded to be that way...to hopelessly want family and be a mother...

because that's nature...and men are meant to be outside hunting and gaining resources for family...

so it's the nature itself that speaks...

not that women are mean or being selfish to always think about men, and always want to do better for men, but it's their nature to want to create a family for human's survival...if not, the human race would die thousand years ago...we will be extinct if women do not want this...and men are coded to want to stay in a family but not that attach because they're meant to be out there...creating resources and fight...

so, i have come to understand that everything we do in life, no matter what era we are...we will always act as nature's calling...

we wanna grow up, we wanna have families, we wanna have next of kin...

so it's no one's fault that we are acting this way...

it's all written...

there is no point in judging or feeling sorry for those who's in search for it...because i used to feel sorry for this...for women who are so hopelessly rely on men and wanna marry and all...
there are those who throw away their careers, their parents and even their own personality for men and families they built...

"Only with understanding you will find true wisdom"

please do understand sumy...please....