scared and fear does kill..i learned it in hard way~

because of scared, i've been too miserable to myself...

i scared to choose, i scared to step ahead, i scared just to imagine who i can become...

i have dreams...but then they all lie in deep deep ocean, too scared to get surfaces....

but now....

i'm gonna dive and bring it up...

make it reaches the surface and even bring it to the shore...

God, please give me strength...

i understand why i keep can't get to where i want...

it's all because i'm scared...

too scared to say, too scared to act, too scared to participate...

it's just too miserable that i wish i can be born again to change it...

however, human can always try again...

and thank God for pausing me...

thank for giving me time to think, practice, creating myself for a better me...

so that i will be more worthwhile on what so ever thing that i'm gonna do later on...

''it's not excellent course of study that make the student excellent,

 it's the student's excellence to make whatever he's studying excellent''

''it's not excellent job that make yourself seemed excellent, 

but your own excellence will make the job seemed excellent''