so Buddha said....

"You give, no matter how selfish people get, you give anyway" -Buddha-

so i have come to understand what this words meant...when i encountered one. For selfish people there is really no other way to deal with them rather than just to give. Because as much as i wish for them to change and pray things will turn out differently, it won't.

so, i need to give...because there might seem like i'm at lost here, but maybe some other way, God will grant me with peacefulness of feeling fulfillment...because if i go down to their level and being selfish too, i won't be able to live with myself...it's disgusting...so maybe if i'm being me, maybe not all the time its satisfying...i will be fine with the peacefulness at least.

i keep asking, what world want so much from me? and the answer as for now is...EVERYTHING that i can give...world doesn't care how much i lose, they only care how much they get...and the problem with me when i taking something from people is, i see what they lose, so i don't take...but selfish people, they will always see what they get...and being so ignore with what people lose, they don't care...as long as they get what they want...they don't care what you lose...they don't care if what they ask are too much for other person to bear...they won't care even if they're being told to.

and that just make life getting more and more suck if we choose to care how much selfish people care...