have you ever scared of what you talked?

i do... it's haunting me... whatever i talked... i scared of what it might bring... i scared of it's impact... because nothing goes around doing nothing... even air is needed to be inhaled... even rubbish needed to be recycled... what about words? that coming out of us... words that passed through our brain... so it sure meant something... because that's what measured our brain.. on how it works... it's important... very very important... and meaningful... yeah that's the word...meaningful.. everything is meaningful....

i spent so much time worrying...

i spent too much time worrying about things i shouldn't be worrying about... i spent so much time trying to walk in someone else's shoes that i forgot to tie mine... i spent so much time thinking that people will be doing the same...but no..they're not... i spent so much time thinking, tip toeing, and caring that i forgot how to live... i won't do it anymore...will i ever? i scared of myself that i can't trust myself to be normal...to do what normal people do...you know, not caring and stuff... i'm such a naive... and i feel stupid... feel...

tomorrow

tomorrow i'm turning 24...and yet...i feel so hopeless and helpless... haihhhhh aging doesn't help here... it's just minus all my chances... maybe some... lot's of scholarship will be unavailable and tons more i'm not qualified for... i should be grateful... i should...but it just hit me on what such a failure i've become... just sad... damn sad....

searching for that person

so, think...who you gonna miss then... WIZ KHALIFA "See You Again" (feat. Charlie Puth) It's been a long day without you my friend And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again We've come a long way from where we began Oh I'll tell you all about it when I see you again When I see you again Damn who knew all the planes we flew Good things we've been through That I'll be standing right here Talking to you about another path I Know we loved to hit the road and laugh But something told me that it wouldn't last Had to switch...