End point

End point is what everyone of us running to... try our best to be there, for just to be there only will feed our satisfactions... What's your end point? Mine? It is just too far away...far til i don't feel like that's my end point anymore... however, i'm still running to it... run to go get it.... run run and run... just before i realize that i can see it's shadow now... but just then, the light seems to sail away.... leaving me in the darkness....i can't find my end point even it's so close to me...next to me perhaps? until that...

i'm in sh*t....

yesterday, i watched Will Smith's talk bout life.... and he said; 'most of all, even if no one is believing it, you have to believe in it' 'and decide, please decide...and start from there just do it' 'don't ever make plan B to distract your plan A'.... ''always have strong enthusiasm to FOCUS and make A GREAT FOCUS on what you're doing'' the way he said...blew my mind... i've always made plan B in my life...because i know that i'll always fail in plan A.... i've always easily given up on my plan A and never believe that it's gonna work... i...

just wanna try....

-KELLY CLARKSON- BREAKAWAY Grew up in a small town And when the rain would fall down I'd just stare out my window Dreaming of what could be And if I'd end up happy I would pray Trying hard to reach out But when I'd try to speak out Felt like no one could hear me Wanted to belong here But something felt so wrong here So I pray I could breakaway I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly I'll do what it takes ‘til I touch the sky And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change And breakaway Out of the darkness...

chutttaaa

chutta if can be like them... no need even to try... no need even to stressed out... don't even have to make life calculation to survive each day... chutta... God... i wish to be someone else again... i don't appreciate of what i have again... i'm doing sin again... God... thank you for everything... thank you... thank you.... and sorry... sorry... sorry....

problems....

that moment when u realize u're surrounded by nothing but problems.... u just can't see the bright side of life.... people hate u for u.... u find hard time to even talk to ur own family members.... u feel don't deserve to be where u are... and most of all, u feel regret of having this life.... people are different.... other people sip a lucky drink while u're the one who get to drink the poisoned one.... just that, when u gonna get that lucky sip too right?? just when?? it is so hard, so impossible and such a dream for me to lead 'this'...