only God knows how....

only God knows how the scared is creeping up my brain.... and only God knows how procrastinate i'm because i'm too scared to start, try and fail...again... God, gives me strength....i wanna have faith again... CHAYOK!!!>.&l...

God, You heals my fear....please heal it with Your bless...sathuk

God, this piece of letter is from my heart to You.... 'Phrak ei chaui che duai' i have fears...a BIG one... it's engulfing me with it's giant world... God, why fears are so scary? why it's power is so great that i can't make it to fight back... to compare to the fears i have...my faith and my bravery is just a little piece of bean... God, i'm scared.... i'm scared, i'm not going to make it... Phrak ei che klua...klua chat.... i'm shivering... my feet numb... my hands are weak... my head is blocking.... i can't think on how to escape...

Hall of Fame

"Hall Of Fame"  by The Script featuring Will.i.am  You could be the greatest You can be the best You can be the king kong banging on your chest You could beat the world You could beat the war You could talk to God, go banging on his door You can throw your hands up You can be the clock You can move a mountain You can break rocks You can be a master Don't wait for luck Dedicate yourself and you can find yourself Standing...

i'm not trying hard enough....

i know i'm not trying hard enough... wasting time on regrets, doubts, and giving up.... wasting time on useless craps plus procrastinating... God saw me...every day....see what i do, what i think, what i've become... such a loser...indeed God, forgive me... i am just so dumb! i can't do this anymore! i can't take it to see myself getting lower and lower... i'm tired of being miserable and can't control myself from procrastination.... God, why it is so hard for my brain to get it? God....i feel bad about myself... i feel really...really...really...

Try try try

"Try"  by P!nk Ever wonder about what he's doing How it all turned to lies Sometimes I think that it's better to never ask why Where there is desire There is gonna be a flame Where there is a flame Someone's bound to get burned But just because it burns Doesn't mean you're gonna die You've gotta get up and try try try Gotta get up and try try try You gotta get up and try try try Eh, eh, eh Funny how the heart can be deceiving More than just a couple times Why do we fall in love so easy Even when it's not right Where...

plan? ask first...

well, let's start with these few questions... 1) where do you want to 'go'? 2) is that truly what you always wanted to? 3) can you go there? 4) do you have all resources for that? 5) what do you need to do to complete this task you've decided? plan? what plan? can u plan it? 6) what it takes to make the plan done? then start planning... and start doing.... plus counting down... these few questions...can change you forever... decide.plan.do.continue.there 5 stages of success... look simple... look again... think... think...

saying the same thing...over n over~

i keep myself from moving on because i tied myself to the past.... glorious past, is past... it never is going to make sure glorious future... present...is present, never is going to promise any future either.... what i learned must be, nothing is certain.... anything can happen... i can't keep telling myself i must be like this and that just because i used to be like this and that in the past... i must lift this 'anchor' of mine.... and sail... sail to new places... i must forgive what's that already happened...and move forward... i...

lowest point

have u ever reach your lowest point of life?? well, to define lowest point of life; means,  you just can't imagine what's there left for you to live with... you feel like u're at the dead end, nowhere to escape and engulfing by the darkness... well, here i am...at that very strategically point...  i can see no future of my own, i can feel no hope for me to move on,  and i can feel every pieces of me is dropping one by one, losing hope and will to strive for living... people, it is really hard to be here, at this point... to...

just anything...could happen...really, i learned it hard way~

Anything Could Happen - Ellie Goulding -  Stripped to the waist We fall into the river Cover your eyes So you don't know the secret I've been trying to hide We held our breath To see our names are written On the wreck of '86 That was the year I knew the panic was over Yes since we found out Since we found out That anything could happen Anything could happen Anything could happen Anything could happen Anything could happen Anything could happen Anything could After...

like final

i'm going to treat it like it's a final....final exam... yeah, and now is like tons of things to read and to go through... God...bless me... give me hardworking (which shall i seek) give me strength (which shall i create) Sathuk.... i know i'm on mission impossible....but sometime, do be able to be as far as you can, teach u how far u can really go~ ...

high five out there!

when i feel annoyed by those who ask me for favors,  who i know i'll end up get nothing in return, i'll think of this.... stop your mind from thinking that i need something in return when i help people... what i mean here is, there is one type of people on earth, that no matter how many times u help them, and when it comes to a time that u'll ask the same,  they're just gonna ignore u...u know? that kind of person? i'm sure...

when the wait will be over?? just when??

w.a.i.t.i.n.g is disaster...is torturing...is sickness...is...killing~ just when it's going to be over? i'm sick of thinking that i'm gonna screwed it up... i'm sick of thinking that the ending is not as beautiful as i imagine it will be... i'm too tired of giving up and not trying good enough... but, what is 'good enough' anyway? i'm worried, i get stress, i'm procrastinating, then i regret... oh gosshh enough already! >.<'' wake up!  have faith will ya?!...

blacklist stuffs

here official my blacklist stuff; 1) never reply message 2) only have inspiration when having boyfriend 3) never have credit to reply message but have credit clingy around boyfriend 4) use...always pretend to be nice because wanna use... 5) blaming...yeah, blame it all on me because i can take them? evenineverdoit these are five my life PRINCIPLE of blacklist...and i wish i'll never ever ever ever ever encounter these kind of monster ever again in my life! Goshh pissed off!! >.&l...