thanks ama for loving che~

"Dark Side" by Kelly Clarkson Oh oh oh, there's a place that I know It's not pretty there and few have ever gone If I show it to you now Will it make you run away? Or will you stay Even if it hurts Even if I try to push you out Will you return? And remind me who I really am Please remind me who I really am Everybody's got a dark side Do you love me? Can you love mine? Nobody's a picture perfect But we're worth it You know that we're worth it Will you love me? Even with my dark side? Like a diamond From black dust It's...

^^ Nearly Strike 2013...New Year Eve ^^

so, it is actually just a day of yours to use up... same day, same 24 hours, same sun shine and same birds sing in the middle of morning... what make it so special? new year eve is sometime even more exciting than new year itself...haha because it is the last day of u to be in certain year that shall past in any minute... 2012 shall past and never come back again... so, typical thing that people do on new year eve? celebrating? crying? hugging? cuddling in front of movie? studying n not even notice the clock is ticking to 2013? whatever...

Have Faith!

''Faith is exactly what it takes to get through uncertainty.'' ''Faith is not necessary when you know how things are going to work out, - that's knowledge. It's in the time of unknowing that having faith is what sees you through to the other side. Faith is what gives you strength. Faith is that light in your heart that keeps on shining even when it's all darkness outside. Now is the time to keep that faith alive!'...

New Year will come...New Chapter Shall Begin

''It's okay if your patience is running thin with a flighty friend -- and it's perfectly okay to take a break from spending time with them. Relationships go through phases, and it's just not healthy to pretend that your feelings for someone else never go through changes. Right now, you need to clear up your emotions about this person, and get your distance. Figure out what they add to your life -- and figure out if you are adding anything to theirs. Are you just friends out of habit?'' ''Now is a good time to hunker down and take stock -- what...

i've changed

i find out, i've changed... since 'tsunami' hit me last time... i care more... i hear more... i try more... and of course most care people hurt the most... i miss my friends... when they don't, as they are so busy with their stuffs, so i guess it's a wrong timing...and i've been annoying... at home i try my best to be a good daughter, and yes, i've been better at it... studying stuff also getting better with schedules and all, i try on diet again since i gain like 4 kgs for last months >.< sleep? i try to make it better... still...

God of Study, Read it...Worth.

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NeW yEaR reSoLutiOn~

so, 2013 is just around the corner!! \(^_^)/ it's time for New Year Resolution! 2012 Resolution?? mine; - graduated (done) - lose some weights (done but not good enough) - good daughter (still doing) - good friend (still doing) - good student (done but just an average) so that's all for last year...hehe i mean this year... next year? (another 6 days to come) 0fficial Sumithra's 2013 Resolution; 1) good daughter 2) good person, good Buddist 3) good student 4) good friend 5) good grand daughter 6) good good good good...

*•○♥○•*!!Christmas's here!!*•○♥○•*

Merry Christmas and have blast!!^...

hard to handle

i am hard to handle, that is what my mum said, my friends said and  many more become-stranger people said bout me... i am..indeed hard to handle :))) shamelessly admit this~ yeah... i don't know... it's just occur to me i think something twice or maybe triple of what people think, and i don't like handle other people who is as hard as me or even harder... i feel tired just to care how much they become difficult with me.... and i always hate on how ego, self-center and selfish they can be.... but of course i can accept it...i just...

3 types of friends:

there are 3 types of friends from my point of view; 1) A friend that you think as a friend and he does think you as a friend. 2) A friend that you think as a friend but he never think you as friend. 3) A friend that think you as his friend but you never do think he as a friend. these are major types of friendship i got to know... and i end up always at no.2 type... i don't know...just never really get it back... never get that love and trust back.... all i know is they are so happy to see me down,  they are so wanna know...

strength....where are u?

when i scheduling my day for study stuff, all of my strength to stay fix to it is non! >.< God...i wish i have that strength... i wish i can be more discipline and live my life with more efficiency... how can other people do that?? how can they be so discipline in their life?? wake up early... eat properly.... balance.... top score... remember everything... if only i have half of both...my life will be better! let's hope i'm gonna fix to it to the end... i need a month on spm review... another 2 months for FIS... and 3...

yeah that will be it....

yeah, that will be it... i need to change... in other to do that, i have to eliminate my all-day-addict things... so that i can focus... that will be it... so now...let's pray i can control the other thing the to-change list of mine... God, give me strength.......

Genetically related

i never know him... i never even call him 'Appa' i never even know what it's like to have him by my side, or to have a more than 2 person in a family... but do u believe in heredity personality?? heredity guts? and heredity view?? it's true... i never see how he walks... i never see how he laughs... i never see how he speaks, i don't even know how his voice be sounded like... but.. every inch of him... is actually there inside me.... my mum said; u like guitar? just like him... u don't like that?? just like him... u do this thing...

we'll heal our scars by fulfilling our dream...

"Learn Me Right" By MUMFORD & SONS (with Birdy) -Brave- Though I may speak some tongue of old Or even spit out some holy word I have no strength with which to speak When you sit me down and see I’m weak We will run and scream You will dance with me We’ll fulfill our dreams and we’ll be free We will run and scream You will dance with me We’ll fulfill our dreams and we’ll be free We will be who we are And they’ll heal our scars Sadness will be far away So I had done...

Brave

i ran through movie lists to download and just notice i haven't watch BRAVE... cute girl who determines on her own choice.... even risks her family just to make her idea right... but turns out, various lessons learned by her and her mum... i can't say enough how much this movie is closed to my situation... i can't say how much it snatches away few tears of mine in every part of Merida and her mother, Elinor going through things... i've been there... so selfish, ready to sacrifice anything just to make sure i can catch my dream... but...

smell the fresh airrrrrr

smell the fresh air of the morning.... smell the upcoming 2013... i'm a very very very horoscope freak!>< and next year :((( my life will be in such trouble and if i wanna succeed...i need to work real hard for it!! yeahh actually i'm sort of know exactly what it is meant... i need to work hard..yeah i am... i'm taking another step of risk what... risk my time, risk my money (no actually my mum's;pp) and risk my energy.... God,...

one question

one question that strikes me quite hard by one of my friend,  how to be humble? it is indeed a very hard question to answer as me myself is asking myself the same thing.... how to be humble?? what is humble?? i ran through the meaning in a dictionary of mine and fine out; Humble(adj) - Someone is humble when he believes that he is no better, cleverer,  or more important than other people. You humble when you sacrifice your pride,  i.e to beg for something, or to apologize. so, from what i got...i simply ask...

true friend

what i've experienced.... a true friend is real hard to find... out of all those surround u...u just need to find the true one... and it is called best friend... for me...it is just so damn hard to find one... u can have a bunch of friends but a true one?? u might find yourself don't have one... bunch of friends; who choose to keep pride as award before u....REJECTED who betray u with speechless 'knife on the back' thing....REJECTED who just wanna suck money, only-help,.....REJECTED who can't take u as who u are, and tend...

There's still spark in me...there is~

"Firework" by Katy Perry Do you ever feel like a plastic bag, Drifting through the wind Wanting to start again? Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin Like a house of cards, One blow from caving in? Do you ever feel already buried deep? 6 feet under screams but no one seems to hear a thing Do you know that there's still a chance for you 'Cause there's a spark in you You just gotta ignite the light, and let it shine Just own the night like the 4th of July 'Cause baby you're a firework Come on, show 'em what you're worth Make...

that cold...

that one coldest day, that u feel it creeps up ur spine, chilling every nerve and eat ur brain up... digesting ur heart one beat by one beat.... that day of LONELINESS.... it's cold...dark...gloom and icy deathly chilling ur soul... that is the power of loneliness... that is how much it can destroy once heart... to be lonely... so cold... so far... so detach... so dark... i just...just need the warm... warm love that can heal this...

gonna start new chapter...

i can feel such a little bit faith u have in me... but this little bit is such a power for me to prove myself that i worth more out of u... i'm gonna make u know that i know what i'm doing... and i'm gonna make u proud... ama, just be patient... we'll go through this with FAITH and PATIENT.... God knows we r trying.... i'm gonna make u proud... I PROMI...

all those toxic~

all those toxic can go to hell... i don't want u to be toxic in my life n i don't want to be yours either understand?? bla..bla..bla..bla..bla.. care bout me, love me, my ass~ can go to hell.... any floor u wan...

i wish i understand....

"Sumithra darling, the key to success is succeeding at knowing yourself, and you can't get to know yourself until you suppress your inner struggles." -Anit...

forgive??

there is one thing i won't be able to forgive no matter how long it takes.... MYSELF i don't think i can ever forgive myself... ever....

Payphone

Payphone  by Maroon 5 I'm at a payphone trying to call home All of my change I spent on you Where have the times gone Baby it's all wrong, where are the plans we made for two? Yeah, I, I know it's hard to remember The people we used to be It's even harder to picture That you're not here next to me You say it's too late to make it But is it too late to try? And in our time that you wasted All of our bridges burned down I've wasted my nights You turned out the lights Now I'm paralyzed Still stuck in that time when we...

take it as lesson, why waste it?

i'll take this as lesson.... at least, i can have such a time to think bout what i want in life... it is so chaotic back then to make the decision... this time, when the time come, i'll firm n go for one... i'll follow the pros n cons that i've listed... not just follow my selfish mind... i think i know what i need to do now... i think i know....