when we met....

when we meet those who are far more greater than us...we often go through stages of knowing and acceptance...yeap, i put it this way...just like stages of acceptance... when we see that one person who is so much greater than us, we feel small...we want to be everything like them, we want to be everything but our own selves.... when we see how good they are that we often go through that kind of grieve...grieve and dwelling with our flaws... we blame ourselves on how much not enough we are....we want to be like them, we want to strive like them,...

have you ever been out of brain to think or act for your life?

i am at that stage that im out of brain on how to live my life... money doesnt seem to be enough no matter how much i try to cut my usage... things keep coming for me to just pay pay and pay... no income whatsoever... and im struggling to stay sane throughout this,,,and im certainly not a saint to stay fine 24/7... im tired of being me from time to time...and this might be the most disgusting phase... i just cant wait to pass all of these and have a better life...yeah talk like my life is so much in hell right now...someone is being ungrateful...

How to do this

one thing i dont like having is to have professional situation with my dear ones...because i tend to be serious and turn into a complete different person...and tht will make them hate me...for years of my existence...i have never been able to solve this problem just yet... im 'bipolar' when it comes to jobs...and i just cant be funny or kidding in it...and when i try to...my results gone to hell all because i wanna be polite... #sad #how #Godhelpme...

i'm gonna write something a bit weird today

it's weird because it catches my respect.... i often heard, read or been through those people with hard times and lives and can make it to the top, so they know how to stay humble and respect other people... but one more category that catching my attention are those who have everything since birth, been through every nearly perfect lives, have nearly perfect body, skin, family, friends and conducive environment and country, but....still make it to be such humble, kind, compassionate, and respectful person towards others... this kind are rarely...

burnt out

at certain point of life...you will find yourselves associating with those who are so hard to deal with... those who walk into the room and straightaway burn out all of your mental energy... those who talks negative about themselves and spread all those energy to the whole room... its none of your business to turn them into positive minded...but simply dont make yourselves take it in any of those negative thoughts... simply live each day just to survive those people is really really burnt me out... but sometimes, you just cant choose whom or...

super confused

super confused by my own needs to please my tiredness and to please my hard work....

tht moment

tht moment when you already get used to failure compare to success...yeah tht moment...

it's okay..do it for yourself...

it's okay...your own self is already enough reason fro you to fight, to try and to strive more... for yourself...is already enough....

that moment...

that moment when the selfish ones are tired... and you just...you have no idea what i have been through just to have you in my life....

is there any way out of this?

is there any way out of this? me being selfish and me wanting to be nice in this world... is there any way out of this that can make everyone happy including myself? phrak eii chuai che duai....

i'm sad because

i'm sad because i'm surrounded by people who running around searching for happiness but never once stay with their own selves.... i'm sad because everyone counts little things people do but never count giant things they've done.... i'm sad because all of my life i have known compassion but here it doesn't apply until you're useful... i'm sad because people would rather be rude and seem strong than be kind and seem weak... i'm sad because everyone here thinks they are special and deserve attention but no one actually give any back... i'm sad because...

how

how to stay success when you're everything but happy? how to stay focus and success anyway even when you're full with worries and sadness around your neck? how to stay on the track? when there are millions of reason for you to not ...

how to empty this stupid endless thinking mind?

how to stop thinking about everythi...

don't bother...

i don't even bother praying for the best anymore... its like nothing is getting better... i don't bother doing trying or even striving for better anymore.... yeah people said, everyone fails...everyone gets knocked down... you haven't try my life yet... i'm out of my time, out of my place and out of my reach here... there is signs all over the place telling me to just freaking go home... no matter how much i try...i seemed to be left out and can't catch up here... i'm just too damn scared to try...because i scared of how much it won't be...

Not in good shape

My life right now is not in good shape... Anything anything anything at all can go wrong...anything can happen and nothing seems to make sense... Its no joke how hard it can get sometimes...no joke... And im surrounded by those who are not wasy to deal with either...well we are humans...who can be simple and easy to deal with? But instead of looking at this as a bless...i look at it a curse..a freaking curse... I resent those who doesnt make my life easier...i have a life a living a survive to fight for and for few people they can make it harder...