Wednesday, February 09, 2011

am i able to do this?

i just got my result for ekonomi....
as expected

worst!!!!!!!

OH MY GOD~
i nver wish for this....
what should i do??

it takes my spirit down....
i got lots to do.....
and i know....
sometimes....
study is the last list!!!!!!!!!
i can't do this anymore!!!
i have to change!!!!
study!
study!
study!!!!

i'm not that kind of person!
i have to make up this!
i'm not tht kind of person!!!
i have to try harder!!!!
^^

chayok2!!!!

got test 2 n final.....
chayok sumy!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, February 07, 2011

Mentality.......

I used to read a book....
which telling people about mentality......
it said.....
people have their own mentality.....
and there got classes!

1st, 2nd, 3rd and so on.....

1st one of cos..... Great mind!!

and so on......

When talking about mentality.....
for me.....
i will think more to manners of the person......

mentality make manners......
and
if he or she is bad or good in any aspect,
it's all based on mentality which will at last result in manners.......

For me now, i meet lots of people.....
and there are lots of 'weird' things out there....
which it makes me think how I am?

However, to create one self is never end......
i will never judge a lowest ranking student in any class as the dumbest student in the class......
but, if he or she create himself or herself to become a great person.....
one day for sure, that student will make it 1st rank in the class.....

no one low forever and no one high forever......

so come back to the topic; mentality

people have their own way of thinking.....
you can't control all people mind to like you......
you can't tell them to think about you positively all the time......

even the person you know....
and he or she may know you.....

A person may say that he or she knows you.....
but the way they 'know' you is not the way we think he or she knows us.....

what he or she says is we love chocolate....
but actually we may love fruits more......

So, he or she can tell every body that we love chocolate but we even love fruits more.....

So, conclusion is.....
You can't control what people think.....
but you can control what you think about.....

If one day, if you feel like other person is thinking about you negatively.....
so just ignore and say he or she thinks this way is because you show him or her this way....

even he or she is a teacher, good friend, classmate, or even relative.....

However, for me......
if i find out that a close person to me think so much negative towards me......
So, it's all my fault that bring them that way.....
Because i can't make them trust on me......

I can't change their mentality but i can change mine.....
It's ok......
It is just something to ignore and laugh hard!!!!
~(^_^)~

so,

use what you have learned before, see what you have faced before as lesson.....

all these things come to you with reason.....
and God knows how and why they are mend to be so......

learn from mistake and never bring yourself to it again.....

Those who repeat the same mistake is dumber.......

Stop thinking about nonsense, and start anew.....

You know where your strength come from.....
and it is not depend on all these things.....
not even a bit right??
haha

so?

what you waiting for??

Just start anew~

Forget about the pass or even present.....

Just focus on now on......

You know why are you being here....
it is to study.....
this is a part of a life long learning

If you find something extra (Good friend, boyfriend, soul mate) then it is good for you,
but if it is not than there is nothing to be regret of.....
at least you learn something from these.....

(^_^)

Chayok!!!

God, please keep me away from any bad things....
please place me with those who love me and i love them....
please let me be with those who sincere and truthfully.....
please let me happy with a right person and please give them happiness hundredth times bigger than me^^

And for those who you sent to me with a great purpose to teach me.....
Please let them find their happiness with the person who love them and sincere......
I can't say i like or love them....
Because there are so much pain.....

I can just say.....
Hope they are happy and success.....

Sathuk^^

Saturday, February 05, 2011

holz near end;)

holz da nak abis!!!!

test da nk dekat!!!!

chayok sumy chayok!!

^^

bnyk prgrm nga tggu tuk di settle.....

hohoho......

long way to go!!!

chayok!!

(^_^)


Thursday, January 27, 2011

will be better^^

i seriously sleepy now....
however.....
i wanna share these few words

i have become a person who i never imagine i will be.....
i have become a person who doing such a big2 thing and need lots of strength
which....... i don't really know if it is there, inside of me......

this responsibility is hard and challenging.....
however.....
with God willing....
i hope everything will be ok....
just pray for the best!!!
^^

Friday, December 24, 2010

อยู่คนเดียว

อยู่คนเดียว
(OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO)
~Bird Thong Chai~

อยู่คนเดียวกับตอนเย็นเย็น

และก็ไม่เห็นว่าจะต้องมีใครใครมาเคียงข้าง

อยู่ลำพังกับความอ้างว้าง

นั่งมองดูแสงรำไรของดวงตะวันจนลับไป

เหม่อมองจันทร์ที่ลอยขึ้นมา

ดึกดื่นอย่างนี้แล้วเพื่อนที่มีที่ดีที่สุดคือหมอนข้าง

อยู่เหงาเหงาอย่างคนที่ปล่อยวาง

ก็อยู่อย่างนี้จนชิน

*ไอ้คนไม่รู้ก็คอยจะถามทำไมไม่หาใคร

ซักคน เข้าใจ และรักจริง

ก็ทุกคน ดูแสนดี ดูจริงใจ

ก็ยินดีที่ได้เจอแต่ no no.. no no no no.. wo.. wo..

**ก็เพราะเวลาฉันรัก รักจริง

มันมาไม่นิ่งเอาตอนเธอมาทิ้งไป

คนมันรักมากมันก็เลยเสียดาย

มันปวดใจจะบอกใครก็ไม่ช่วย

เพราะรักเองเจ็บเอง

ก็อยู่อย่างคนไม่มีแฟน

จะหาใครมาแทน ก็กลัวว่าเขาจะมาซ้ำ

ก็เดี๋ยวนี้คนน่ะใจดำ

เลยคบกันเที่ยวแบบขำขำ

ก็เจ็บประจำ ก็เลยต้องอยู่คนเดียว

(Thai song, sad, meaningful,^^)

Thursday, December 23, 2010

NEW YEAR!!!!

is waiting, counting down, hoping, wondering for New Year 2011!!!!!^^

I hope this new year will bring new good things into my life......

2010??

completely ruining myself this year.....
i swear i will not forget this 2010 ever in my life!!
=_=''

this is a year of lost.....
hahahaha
besides things, i also a bit lost of my own tract!!!

i completely forget who i am and what i am supposed to do!!
OH MY GOD!
i don't want to blame anyone but myself!
so lost Sumy!
=_=''

so?

New Year??

YES!!!
i have to have plan and stick to it!!!!
i can't do all this 'lost' things anymore!
i have to be alert of life and be more mature physically and mentally!
haihhhhh

so long to go and may be totally rough!
but

i'll do my best!!!!!
ALL DA BEST!!!!!!!
^^

THERE MUST BE A CHANGE IF YOU WANT A CHANGE!!!!!
CHAYOK!!!!
(^_^)

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Teacher

today.....
i get something....
'Teacher comes in many form'

This quote....
haha
guess why??

^^

i learned a lot!
so...
this is just like outdoor learning....
haha

depend on your own self!!^^

Balik.....

At last i'm here in semenanjung.....
haha
this is the longest journey ever!!
haihhh....
i'm here in LCCT at 6.00pm, but da.....
flight tomorrow to kb by 7 am....
so?
YAP!
stay all night long wait for the flight......
haihhhhh
this is the hardest part.....
all alone.....
nyway....
never forget Balqis and all friends who are always care and worry.....
^^
thnks to Ama....still call me even 2 am already!!!haha
thnks to Balqis
such a good time being accompanied^^
thnks to Audrey....message me even late night already.....
thnks to Kay.....message me either^^

study, challenge and hard time.....
yeah...
always be together huh?

no life if no pain, no tears, no hardship.....
^^

chayok2!

this holiday?
haha
lots to do and handle......
won't take this as granted anymore....
i have responsibility!
as daughter, as granddaughter......
as a human!
haha
i have responsibility to take care of Ama, Muffin, grandma and friends^^

....Ama....
Can't wait to be with ama....
Ama must be so lonely for such along time....haihhhhh

.....Muffin....
Can't wait to take care of you.....
You must be so suffer.....
God, give him strength....
=_=.....

......Liza, Nock, Pem, Peam....
~my friends~
at home....
i have not much close friends....
just four of them....
hahaha
who say just??
they are everything!!! Love you!!
can't wait to lepak ya??
hehe



Happy Holiday!!!
^^

Friday, November 19, 2010

pause

if talking about rumination.....
my life now is in 'pause' stage!

haha

sem 3 just over.....
^^

happy?
naaahhh....not so....
i'm worried~

worried bout lots lots of things....

1.must be result.....

2.must be bout my new position.....

3.must be new era, new sem, new env, new experience.....

but there is a quote;

Don't deal with the past, don't worry for future and do the best for today!^^

so?

hope evrything is ok....

if you have done your best than there is nothing to worry about......
^^

just wait and see how it will be~
life is not a life when there is no hardship and challenges....

chayok for new sem!!!

Sem 4!!!
wait for me!!!
^^

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

cabaran final

1. Emosi!

2. Labtop! n sewaktu dgn nyer.....

3. Study!

4. Kawan!

5. Motivasi dlm diri.....berkurangan......

hahahahahahaha
tgh gler skunx......
mentally depressed.....

hope it will be better.....

Paper Anatomy Haiwan esk da.....
tp skunx....
lam diri....
jiwa terkacau!
haihhhhh

sabar3......
sabar je satu jln penyelesaian yg agak bgs......
sabar sumy sabar.......

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Life Component

Life has to go on and on....
Life component;

Child;

~ play, cry, smile, happy, mum, dad, family, friends, teacher, study, homework .......

Teenager;

~ happy, sad, family, teacher, study, homework, friends, 'finding for someone'.......

Uni life;

~ happy, sad, lecturers, seniors, family, study, assignment, time, roomate, 'finding for someone'

so?

in our life.....
eemmm
in my life.....

i stdy for me n my mum.....
i live my life and hope for someone to fulfill it sometime.....
such a lonely life if thinking about love live.....
yes,,,
its too early for it huh?
this is a stdy time right?
but.....
the heart has a hole.....
a deep hole....
wait for a fill.....
a meaningful filling....
a care which never get one before.....

now?
accidentally falling in love is hurt....
hahahaha
not the time for it....
but life component as i said....
inside....
is seeking and looking.....
not that desperate but needed....
haihhhh
how to get rid of this feeling huh???

suffering......

haha

cool2....
stdy is always da first rank for me.....
just feel like its not complete.....
maybe this is not the time for me have one.....
and the one i hope is far far far away.....
haha
cheers for the broken!!!
let's party!!!!
^^

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Its all bout love......



Terrified, Katherine Mcphee
Songwriters: Dioguardi, Kara; Reeves, Jason;

Featuring: Jason Reeves

You, by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong
You're the thing that's right

Finally made it through the lonely
To the other side

You say it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only life

And this could be good
It's already better than that
And nothing's worse
Than knowing you're holding back

I could be all that you need
If you let me try

You say it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only

I only said it 'cause I mean it
I only mean 'cause it's true
So don't you doubt what I've been dreaming
'Cause it fills me up and holds me close whenever I'm without you

You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only
LIFE.....LIFE......

Friday, November 05, 2010

RUN!

ok!
clear your head....
and go for it!!
^^
anatomy!
physiology!
shw!
statistics!
sak!

just do da best!
result?
forget it!
its not your job to think about it....
God knows wht's da best for you.....
but now just do da best!!
time is running out!
come on!
GO!GO!GO!
CHAYOK SUMY!!!
^^

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

responsibility

responsibility......
as human
we are born to play own own role to this world.....
start,to God....
to mother....
father.....
ourselves....
and without our realize....
it makes us grow from time to time.....
but it also can take us down.....
so
when it comes to burden as there are lots of responsibility to be handled and accomplished...
so hard to think about future when today are so hard to be passing through....
so hard,so pain,so torture and disastrous....

plan by plan fail.....
but never fail to plan.....
but also so tired to plan....
which we know already that it won't work......
but we still have to do to survive.....
yeah.....
have to....
MUST!
because no one will handle this but ourselves.....
we have no secretary.....
haha
wish to have one...but impossible to go.....
so....
just try from day to day....
walk even know there are torn every where in front....beside....or even inside.....
but as human...giving up is normal but there is not forever.....
start again is a common word to use......
yes.....
have to start again!
start....
and just remember that there is no 'too late' or 'too bad'......
have to make up inside strength to continue this hardship and battle......
have to think positive as never born to be one.....
have to motivate own self as never have own motivator to tell tell you what to do.....
have to smile because others are sad to...so don't make it worst because its already worse.....
have to take care because others also need care as we are.....
so....
this burden is just so much to list down.....
as listing is also a burden.....
because readers are requesting our care too.....
names,things...are sensitive......
haha....
see?
everything is burden.....
but just smile and go on.....
because everyone faces this burden too.....
no one to blame but please......

responsibility is a simple word that is really complex to explain.....
different people different view....opinion...and comment.....
readers may laugh of what we wrote.....
some may agree....
some may defense.....
nothing we can do to satisfy others but ourselves.....
just write what we feel and stop thinking about others......
correction always follow after 1st 2nd or 3rd comments....
but inside still fight for the right.....
see??
this is also a burden......
and now just think what is this related to the title responsibility??
haha
funny.....
as responsibility is everywhere.....
it may come with manners.....
those who have manners also have a higher responsibility as human as she or he has to think and think and think,so that there will always be a good way to pass by as others will always consider you as you always do the same to them....
so......
just smile and go on!
yes!
go on!

these words are express in the complex, confuse, stress and blur time.....
so. the idea may mix,blur,confuse and yeah...hard to understand....
sorry.....
;(




Tuesday, June 22, 2010

new sem^^

just in da blink of eyes.....

i'm here in LCCT(again), waiting for da flight to bintulu~

huhuwww

can't wait to start new sem!
based on da previous rslt.....
i hv to work harder this time!!!
just a bit more to get what i want!

God~
gives me strenght.....
i seriously want tht score~~~
just a bit more to go but seems like lots of work needed for it~~
=_=
sometimes...feel like lots of things to focud on...
and i just lost da point!!
lost the track~~
please......
=_=