stop

so Buddha said;  "If you try to fix others, have you tried fixing yourselves? it is hard?" "so, even yourself is hard to fix, what about fixing others? isn't that meant it's quite impossible?" so, whatever force outside that try their best to get your attention for anger, for revenge, for envy... stop... stop and think and stop that feeling within yourselves... fix it from inside... fix it bit by bit til you get over it... stop within yourselves... so let the peace comes from within... don't search form outside... you might think...

true happiness

true happiness is not exactly having giant house, tons of cars or big expensive breakfast... true happiness is sometime simply means having someone who shares your sadness in your true sad... someone you can talk to about your sadness for hours and not judging... someone who understand and won't compare their lives to you... someone who doesn't come up with impossible suggestions and just listens to what u have to say... some kind words of supportive and caring... some kind eyes and not happy wishing your doom... some true loves, sincere...

so they say,,,want it bad enough til you get it

i hope i want it bad enough that one day i'll get it.... ...

have u ever feel...empty?

have you ever feel empty? like literally empty on the inside? i feel it... i feel it now... people are all around me... chaos, works, study, stuffs...but still i feel empty... like at the end of the day, i always find myself all by myself and don't have any good feelings or good friends or good person to keep me thinking at night...to keep me missing them at night...i don't have that...just empty... this feeling sucks... it made you wanna cry but you couldn't bring yourselves to do it... empty....

Do you know where your heart is?

"Say (All I Need)" ONE REPUBLIC  Do you know where your heart is? Do you think you can find it? Or did you trade it for something Somewhere better just to have it? Do you know where your love is? Do you think that you lost it? You felt it so strong, but Nothing's turned out how you wanted Well, bless my soul You're a lonely soul 'Cause you won't let go Of anything you hold Well, all I need Is the air I breathe And a place to rest my head Do you know what your fate is? And are you trying to shake it? You're doing...

i'm letting go

i'm not gonna pretend anymore...i'm letting go~ from now on...i'm not gonna try to like her anymore, from now on i'm not gonna be worried or thinking or planning anything for her anymore... i'm letting her go... i  can see clearly now that it doesn't matter no matter how much i try to... i'm never gonna like her, even before, now or in future.... i'm gonna forget...forget that i used to care... i'm not gonna try anymore.... that's it... no more trying to like or 'jaga hati' or whatever... no more...i'm gonna be me...who...

God give me strength....

God, give me strength to go through those i have to face everyday... God, give me strength to go through my hatred.... God, give me strength to go through those who works with prides and egoist... God, hear me out and stay with me.... i don't know how much i can endure this hatred....i don't want it in my heart...i hate this feeling take it away God...and let me be a free soul...free from hatred, belongs and conceit.... protect me, guide me, stay with me.....

tired

i'm too tired... my lucks seem to run out these days... i go tutorial...there is no tutor... my things keep go missing... kosan's internet doesn't seem to be consistent... exam is coming but i don't even have study group... everyone seems to do their own stuff.... i can imagine how my result would be...and i really don't like it... God...give me  some strength to go through this...sathukk...