balik kelate!!^^

i know i'm not a kid to be so excited bout going back home...but i'm!!!! hahahah but just for 1 week....sorry sorta making this blog my diary now....everyday is just so dull...nothing to do but stress....now going back home...waiting for next flight at 6 am....sathuk...hope everything's ok....

20,23, 24 Jan 2013 - Final Semester 1 Day 8, 9, 10

Hari nie OSCE on 23rd CRP on 24th Comprehensive FBS 3 & 4 (end of Semester 1 Fina...

bcuz my mum said...

after my diploma, i thought i will never can choose path for my life... then one fine day, my mum said; ''If you never choose to become a doctor now, you will never be able to be one'' ''You want it or not? i can support you...at least for a while, then we'll look for any funding help later'' ''Choose now, or if not you will lose it forever'' then i said, how can i even dream of it? it's too late.... and she said; "If you want it, then you just have to be brave enough to admit it, and go for it....other people can why we can't?'' Just...

chose wrong...hurtful memory...wasted...regret...don't

about friends....i grew up in a boarding school which made my life screwed up real bad by not having true friends...correct me if i'm wrong...we all were so busy getting things done that none of us cared about each others but our own selves. i still remember that chill night that i had to walk all the way down stairs to fill up my water bottle with my hurtful leg...and none of my friends care enough to even help out...everyone was so busy studying... this might not even stay in their memories because i'm not really shine and in anyone's...

15,16 Jan 2013 - Final Semester 1 Day 6, 7

Esk FBS IV FINAL 16 JAN 2013 FBS I & II COMPREHENSIVE ...

inspiration from Lorde, young, talented singer-songwriter..

"Everything i do is super important to me, like being a parent to someone else..." "when i want to do something, i throw myself at doing it, and spent hours in doing it..." "i make decision fast, i usually know straightaway what i want" -Lord...

9, 10, 11 Jan 2013 - Final Semester 1 Day 3, 4, 5

Today SOOCA Tomorrow BHP COMPREHENSION PHOP COMPREHENSION 11 JAN BUDDHIST CLASS EXAMINATI...

7 Jan 2013 - Final Semester 1 Day 2

esk... FBS 3 Final Paper sathuk.....

6 Jan 2013 - Final Semester 1 Day 1

esk... BHP I PHOP I KEWARGANEGARAAN sathuk.....

the scared....

the scared that make you feel like every inch of yourselves has nothing to fight back... the scared that consumes you hard that make you feel like it's easier to just give up.... God... is it not my thing? can i do this? why i feel like i'm so lost and can't get along with this kind of life? why i can't manage my life? i wish i'm the person i think i'm...but i'm not.... God, it's so blur and lost for me now... what if i fail her again? i need this... i need this... i need this... i need this... i need this... i need this... i...