wide awake

.....Katy Perry_Wide Awake..... I'm wide awake Yeah, I was in the dark I was falling hard With an open heart I'm wide awake How did I read the stars so wrong I'm wide awake And now it's clear to me That everything you see Ain't always what it seems I'm wide awake Yeah, I was dreaming for so long (Pre-Chorus) I wish I knew then What I know now Wouldn't dive in Wouldn't bow down Gravity hurts You made it...

so much in love with this right now!!!;ppp

what i know in this movie is..the hero's life story is so closed with mine...i really love to watch what happen.. p/s: not the money part;pp...

self reflection is always necessary....

“It is necessary ... for a man to go away by himself ... to sit on a rock ... and ask, 'Who am I, where have I been, and where am I going?” --- Carl Sandburg --- ...

i don't

who said i'm not appreciate my time at home (actually i just post in previous post;ppp), i am actually in so much mood to study...i just can't wait to start like everybody else...i love home, of course i just want to go back to study life...i feel so much useless here...my brain is also getting rusty...my hand even shaking to write something because i haven't hold a pen for so long...my typing is also getting slow because all i type on this keyboard is just space bar to pause/play movie and some other functions.... i just hate being rusty...i just...

tired of waiting, why am i even wait?

i'm now so much tired of waiting.... and i can see how stupid i am not to appreciate the time left to be home... i imagine my self going far away but then not even imagine how much lonely my mum will be... forgive me... i am an idiot a true o...

Self-maintenance consideration

i call this self maintenance...know why? just like phone, they need charger, battery, screen protection n bla..bla..bla.. just like my own self...but i have been putting this maintenance at rest for awhile well..it has becoming rusty... i haven't exercise since august, and i do not practice balance diet for 3 months, and i haven't review any of my language lesson for like...a month~ these 2 months...i have been running away from trying...well to be easy..let' say, i give up...i gain 2kgs...nearly 3 now...and my skin is ugly as hell because i don't...

i am totally in pieces now...

what if i have been such a fool lately... what if i just lose all rather than get one of them... what if my life isn't that fairy tale like i think it is... what if God already abandon me... what if i'm all on my own now? what if i have no right to dream? what if actually i have no right to choo...

ปณิธาน_wish

เกิดมาชาตินี้เพื่อ; วิชา..ปัญญา..ตอบแทนบุญคุณ..เเละ สร้างบุญ สร้างกุศล this born of mine is to search for knowledge, intellectual, pay back and show gratitude towards those helpful, and collect as much life merits as i can.....

พระเทศน์วันเข้าพรรษาตอน; ตัณหา

พระเทศน์วันเข้าพรรษา;  ตัณหา มีอยู่ 3 ประเพศ คือ; กามตัณหา, ภวตัณหา, วิภวตัณหา.... ตัณหา เป็นหลักธรรมข้อหนึ่งในพุทธศาสนา หมายถึง ความติดใจอยาก ความยินดี ยินร้าย หรือติดในรสอร่อยของโลก ประกอบด้วย ความกำหนัดด้วยอำนาจความพอใจ เพลิดเพลินยิ่งนักในอารมณ์นั้นๆ และ ตัณหาย่อมเจริญแก่ผู้ประพฤติประมาท ซ่านไปในอารมณ์ต่างๆ ครอบงำบุคคลใด ความโศกทั้งหลายย่อมเจริญแก่บุคคลนั้น ดังนั้น ความทุกข์ย่อมเกิดขึ้นบ่อยๆ เมื่อบุคคลยังถอนเชื้อตัณหาไม่ได้.... "ตัณหาเกิดจากเวทนาเป็นปัจจัย โดยมี อวิชชาเป็นมูลราก ควรเห็นตัณหา เป็นดังเครือเถาที่เกิดขึ้น แล้ว...

only prayers now....

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'It's Not How Good You Are, It's How Good You Wanted To Be'

this quote has been playing in my head for such a long time since i met the book in popular bookstore of 1B Sabah...in 2010?? yes, this quote is the words i'm searching for...this quotes that bring me to another self of mine that i would never know what it would become....i want to be better than i am now...i want to be better than i am now... For the future to come...i chose 1 road for my self...such a tough road i have never choose before... another road to take...a great responsibility to carry on my shoulder...a great great great burden of...